,Good ole' teenage years.
Pointless rebellion, gossip, the brainswashment period, lying whores, trivalry, unimportant problems, dramatica, ebonics, stereotypes, infatuation, sensitive hypocritical bitches, peer pressure, money, depression.....*yawn*
Again I bitch. Here I go....annnnnd....NOW.
There is something in life that really gets to me. And it's when all of the above qualities are jumbled into one "unique" person. A person so incredibly unique, that they are like every other peer around them! Amazing, is it not? This unique, moody, person often likes to take such trivial things, as common friendship, and expand it into something it just never was. A big long sobby "If you hurt her again I'm gonna beat your ass" story. Let's set this straight.
I do NOT....do NOT...take pride in making innocent people feel terrible because of my actions. I don't act without cause. I don't hate without reason. I don't shave when I don't have hair to shave. Am I making myself clear? Then why would you take an over and done thing that was resolved and try and use it against me? Especially a middle/high school relationship? News flash, 9 times out of 10 they mean nothing and are simply there for experience. They exist so a person can grow. When you meet your first boy or girlfriend, YOU DON'T LOVE THEM. How can I and how do I have the right to say that? Because it's simple:
Relationships have to have dedication and meaning. Not just small talk, not just sex, not just nodding your head when you get them in sight. Just because you got your cha cha licked doesn't equal love or a steady relationship. Sorry to say it. Just because it's been "like weeks" since you've been dating, DOES NOT equal a steady relationship. Something I learned from my disasterous relationship was that living for the moment just won't cut it. The future is a big part. I have no future, thus, my relationship unfolded. I don't know what I could have done.
But one thing I do is that I'm here and alive today. Maybe not tomorrow, but I'm here today. That's what I'm focused on. I care about the future of humanity deeply, as much as I despise the whole, I know there are decent human beings out there. This rabble all intertwines somewhere in this column. It has to do with the difference between relationships and typical teenage relationships. Real relationships with a future, and immature relationships with lost cause.
Why do people who know me well enough take what I say for 100% seriousness? Not this column, I mean what I say, but in just talking. If I say the following statement, do you really take me seriously?
swear to fucking christ ill go to your house and slit your fucking throat and murder anyone you care about
You know how a mature person would respond to what I said there? Either that I was a complete nutcase with a moraless sense of humor, or that I'm really immature. The immature being if I was actually, ya know, remotely serious. But no, alas, I got someone who fitted most of the qualities on the top of this column.
Everything I hate in the typical high school girl was brought out in front of me like a dead rabbit in the middle of the road. "Im gonna kick your ass!" "You hurt her!" "Get over yourself" blah blah blah SHUT YOUR FUCKING TRAP! Enough of this poor-girl mean-boy bullshit. I'm not out to get anybody, just stop making an immature ass of yourself. When I say "I am your god" if you take me literally, you deserve to worship me (lets see how many people are gonna take that out of context to use it against me). I'm feeling so arrogant right now, that I'm going to make a new logo. This is what you will think of when you think of my holy name:
Ahh yes, and if you're too....stupid?....read it real carefully. |
