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| Writing poetry is my one passion in life, it something that no one, can put me down on. It is my escape from life. **I'm slowly turning..by me** I'm slowly turning into you. looking at the world as grey where nothing really means anything because its all just the same. Life i feel has come to the end of its meaning. I'm just that lil' socail-lite. I'm surely turning into you not wanting to really talk to anyone. Its like I am seeing everything through yours eyes but I am not I'm just slowly turning into you. How sad of a world this is but it feels more like reality then my lil' world did. So maybe I'm just growing up seeing the world for what it truely is. Or maybe, just maybe I am slowly turning into you. **I Figured Out Why -By Me** Why? Why did it have to come to this? I never thought you of all people you would do it.. But then when I think back on how much you have been there for me. How could I expect any less especially from you.. I was the star in the play, and the one who audtioned for everything and made it. I was the daughter everyone wanted, except you never seemed to care.About anything I did or even acomplished. You were never there for even one play I put on or one musical I sang in. You were never there for me, but for her you were. You were there when she cheered but not when i did. You were there right beside her helping out, when she wanted to play softball. But not when I did. You weren't there when I tried out for the dance team, or volleyball team. But you were for her when she needed you. Then this christmas I didnt expect much, but I expected equal. But when I saw the stuff you gave to her then took one glance at mine I figured it out. I figured out why you weren't there for me and you were for her. I figured out why you always told her "good job" and not ever said it to me. Or even acknowledged on any of my acomplishments. Although they are so great, endless in number, and I try so hard to please you but I figured out why your never there for me. Because shes your favorite, even though she has smoked and kissed at 10, although she talks back and will probably commit almost every sin, she you will always favor. You weren't supposed to choose, you weren't suppose to favor, but all you ever did was love and treat her better.. All Because You Kissed Me Goodnight ---Unknown To Me I climbed up the door and opened the stairs, Said my pajamas and put on my prayers, Then I turned off the bed and crawled into the light,All because you kissed me goodnight!Next morning I woke up and scrambled my shoes,Picked up my eggs and toasted the news,I couldn't tell my left from right,All because you kissed me goodnight!That evening at last I felt normal again,So I picked up my mother and called the phone,I spoke to the puppy and threw Dad a bone,Even at midnight the sun was still bright.All because you kissed me goodnight! **If Only by me** if only i hadnt cared when your lips touched mine if only i hadnt cared when your tounge was with mine i probably wouldnt of cried so many nights. if only u had told me that it didnt mean a thing when your lips touched mine i wouldnt of cared when u said lets just be friends. but now i sit here wishing and hoping that someday u will come to me and say u wish i was yours. and if only i could say it didnt mean a thing lets just be friends. but i sit playing that "if" game if only i hadnt cared if only you werent there if only i had stoped if only. but next time i will not play this "if " game that tears me apart. i will let u play it. **Have you by me** I wish I could have you in my arms right now to hold you and be with you, forever more but life doesnt work that way oh! do i wish it did. I yearn for your touch so deaply i cry every time you ask me to go with you. i die for i cannot because of them and thier restriant of i'm not quite sure. but it is them to blame for this pain i endure. **Longingness by me** There as he sits I stare with such longingnes2s for his love but as I sit and I stare he stares but not at me but with the same longingness for another. So there we go day by day never acting or living upon the longingness or love for which we bare. **I Know by me** I remember when u used to care, When life wasn't about revenge And power wasn't control over another person. I remember when we were together all the time, When u refused to hurt me And we were not competing. I remember when u started to drift away, When excuses were made And i wasn't important anymore. I remember when the pain started, When the fights increased And u forgot about me. I know the change is complete. **Fear by me** It feels like my heart has been ripped apart torn into little pieces. it terrerizes my soul. how can u ever know the pain i'm going through? there is so much confussion so many unanswered questions. my mind longs for truth but it's too afraid to listen. **Even Though by me** I watch her I watch him total opposites yet soaring chemistry floats through the air. He is suttle, smart and will complete the "American Dream." On the other hand she is blunt, not so bright and 2 will do anything to have him. He is everything shes not, and she is everything he always secretly wanted to achieve. He compliments her she soaks it up. Knowing the pain he will cause not only for her but for himself. Even though he knows this he will still continue giving and she will never stop recieving. **Remember by me**2 Remember the dance when you stole my heart? Remember the night under candle light? Remember the rose petals by the bed and how we used to lay there thinking in our heads "How long will this last"? Well now that its over and we are through tell me ; was it worth all we went through? **DRIFITING by me** i feel as if we are drifting i dont want it to end we dont talk i try but what i see from u is boredom stuck to the same glue as yesterday you need excitement usually u make your own but u have me and i stand in your way i make it to where you have to think of those around u and the effect ur actions will have upon them before u didnt care i didnt ask u to change ur ways but i do appreciate it i dont fit in with your friends i am like an ordinary goldfish in a bowl of beautiful tropical fish i stand out but in an awkard way i am looked upon but as a wanna be bc i want to be beautiful and extraordinary like u 2 with a personality all my own when a tropical fish is with a goldfish the goldfish look upon as him as interesting, different from all the others thats why i picked u bc, u r different but i am a goldifsh there are plenty just like me i am ordinary in the most ordinary of ways i fear that my scales are showing through and u saw my dreams they are like everyone elses ordinary and plain for awhile i kept your attention but now i dont know how i have no more ideas i just have me and my ordinary ways will u stay? or will u find someone just as extraordinary as u and just as different? i torture myself with this question everyday bc, everyday i am with u i grow to love and need you more **UNTITLED by me** Emotions are jumbled and i rumble through those words you once spoke that i thought were true. I love you with my heart, my soul like one should. You said we were over and that you were through with me, with "us". Was it all true? You tell me 2 you love me like i once dreamed you would but your kisses belong to another, one without the twinkle in her eye one who just likes you and thats not even defied. Do i wait ? Do i go? Will i get another chance? Can you promise me forever? Or at least one last dance? One with a sweet ending? One without tears? One where theres no good-bye? Good-bye means forever and I dont have enough tears. Everyday without you I try to let go then you take one glance at me It all comes back to me. So do i stay? Or do i let go? **MURDER by me** its depressing, its stalking, its are everyday world we are faced with crimson blood red walls.. to haunt the family to haunt are generations. we need a clean slate we need to stop all of that which paints the wall crimson r ed so we might see the white pure inoccent of our doings today.. **NEWYEAR by me** Tonite was the night you see that you made a very dear promise to me you and i were supposed to be together to start this new year off why didnt you keep this promise to me now im crying but you cant see how it hurts my heart that even trough friendship you dont belong to me. i loved you with my heart on my sleeve and i let you see that no matter what i would love you and never forget you well tonite your going in the past and im starting a new year at last i will erase alll that you have done to me but your memories i keep forever2 the memories of you and me. Well good-bye from my heart good-bye from my dreams for now you are a thing of the past and mean nothing to me So good-bye my love, good-bye my soul, and good-bye empty promises you make to me... **I dont remember...by me** I'm sorry i'm not the same person you fell in love with, but i dont remember the me before, i dont remember hot to care, i dont remember how to love, i dont remember having a heart, or even what to do with it, i dont remember how to smile, Because before i had never loved, like you I had never felt the pain of losing love, I had never wanted to die more than i do now, Before you love me, before we spent hours on the phone, before you held me in your arms, before i could think of you and smile, instead of cry. Now i only feel hate,2 Now i can only feel the pain and despair in everything. Never will i love again, nor will i open my heart again, not after you, it hurt way too much. So i have stopped it all, now my heart is steel, my tears are dry. Say what you want my love, But im afraid your living a lie, The world changes, and so have i. No one stays the same, not even you.2 So how can you expect the impossible that can never be? Just to reunite the "us" that was? Why would you want that? We would just end the same, with the unbearable pain. So if you truly love me, then except me for me. **Silenced by me** I need to say say everything everything that has been silenced by you by the love A love i fear with every element of my soul its the only thing that i know that can slash me apart the only thing i know that can place me back together A love that scorches my heart Yet embarks a wound that never ceases to close A love I long for A love that makes me whole A love that drives me mad Mad for something to fill an empty hole left behind by you. Left behind by the dagger you grasp in your hand the one you disfigured my heart with I am yet silenced by it, to love you and only you I speak not of love, of pain, of life, for I think of you. I reflect on the various nights we spent united. And the many I spend detached from you. I lay looking unto the heavens above I wonder if you ever think of me? I wonder if we ever could be, once again in each others arms? Happy, satisfied, for once having a purpose in life. A purpose to make each other happy, the purpose to love each other forever and always. Do you think i will always be silenced by the love, a love, I pray to once hold with in my hands again? **MY MIND by me** Its cold, confined, dark, lonely and quiet in this little place i call my mind. It has no dreams, no hope for a future. It holds all emotions inside It feels nothing and keeps all secrets It only think of a brighter day, when a tear is shed when it all comes down, Having not to say "It's okay nothings wrong at least not today." With a fake smile, an eye lash in her eye and as the cold drifts through her heart She promised herself never again would she cry before you She would rather die to let you see her vunarable would just kill her inside shes not supposed to care, shes not supposed to cry Thats why she stay in her cold, confined, dark, lonely mind. She doesnt have to worry about broken hearts, lost hope or forgotten dreams... **Enchanted by me** that smell, his smell, the touch, his touch, that hold, his hold, enchanted, by a over powering force his eyes enchanted with dreams of when he was a child his heart enchanted with a love, pure as blood a mind, enchanted with the eagerness to do anything.. he is enchanted with only traits kept in children yet he is a man2 a man enchanted in my dreams. **Life-by me** Life what a gift some profess! Life what a classroom others proclaim! Life oh Life what a bore! There are no more suprises I expect no less then total pain and no more then total stupidty from that which lives.. Life what a gift some proclaim, but I guess they havent felt the pain. Life what a classroom others profess, guess their hard headed, i keep getting the same damn lesson but with a different cover! So try and suprise me, try and teach me, and I will be yours forever.. 2 **I'm Doing It Again-by me** I'm doing it again, I'm always thinking about him. I'm always dressing to impress him. Why do I do this to myself over and over again? Why do I think about him? Why do i picture myself in his arms? I just met him, and I cant stop thinking about him? I'm doing it again, I've got my eye on him. I know it's just another heartbreak to end my world. But I think I'm ready for the hurt.. Cheap ~Aimee She's in prison now isn't she? Infectious theif Taking what didn't belong to her And how apropriate to say, she had no right Because she had no right you know Everything she took she could give back to them But I'll never have what she took from you What you should have given to me You didn't think did you? And I suposse there was honestly no reason For me to be on your mind at the time But there was even less reason For her to be on your body That selfish bitch with her Slitted eyes watching you, Fell her dark hair all around you Wanted what she couldn't have And got it Because you just gave it up Top, bottem Front, back As many times as you could handle and the stained sheets were all but red She knew she wasn't going to keep you And you knew you weren't going to stay Low rent luxery With a three month limit Less than not worth it And she's engaged now isn't she? Self-ritchouse blonde, She knew what she would have, What she would do to you And now, she wants to talk Like she didn't already get more than she needed from you Her slippery loose thighs, Fat hips They just breathed you in Didn't they Just sucked you up And attatched you to HER One filthy night when your parents weren't home And you didn't care a thing about her You didn't even like that up-class, third rate whore With her two-week stand And her disrespectful mouth Sucking your fingers Deep throughting all eleven members Not discluding the one that has my ring on it now Just so you would know what that mouth could do Practice makes perfect So how much practice did she get before she got to you? How many other bairly adult babys Did that dirty little girl have under her belt? Enough to at least train her gag reflexes, right? I know I'm right She was just a cheap substitute, Just an answer sheet to replace studying Because its conveniant for right now And today its something for nothing But you pay When your cheap thrills are over You'll pay And so will I Because you've held others this tight before You've been places with them, That I've never taken you You've felt things with them, That you've never experianced with me There are people, Who have done more for you Than I've done for you There are things that will always Be soley between you and so-and-so And I will give you things You already gave To somebody else |
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