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TODAY IS BEAUTIFUL, BECAUSE TODAY, WE HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO GIVE AND RECEIVE LOVE THE FRUIT TREE Sometimes our fate resembles a fruit tree in winter. Who would think that those branches would turn green again and blossom, but they do.---Johann Wolfgang von Goethe MY STORY OF DEPRESSION, INSANITY, SUICIDE, AND RECOVERY --- 01-31-2001 I am 46 years old and have always had a problem with a mild case of depression. It would always prevent me from feeling a zeal for life, but I could function. Six years ago, my problem with depression started getting worse. I was feeling more and more like I would never be able to fit into this world. I had few interests in life and they were fading away. Two and one-half years ago a acquaintance of mine committed suicide. I have lost over 40 friends and acquaintances over the years but for some reason, this sent me into the most serious depression I have ever experienced. I received the phone call of Gino's suicide while sleeping in my bed room and would not be able to sleep in that same room again for 6 months. For the next 2 years I was afraid of my telephone and would see to it that it was turned off at night. I would lock myself in a small room before it got dark and would not come out of that room until after daylight. I would have a problem with being very easily frightened and would jump if there was the slightest unexpected sound or motion. Even a completely silent digital clock would frighten me as it silently turned from one number to the next. I had to disconnect it. During the day, life for me was painful and frightening but the nights were far worse. I would lie on the floor in that little room and try to sleep, but would be so filled with fear that I would be on the verge of panic and I would feel that I could have a heart attack any moment. I was going insane, I was loosing control of my mind. I felt a powerful force pulling me to follow Gino and do what he had done. For the first time in my life, I needed to call someone, it was an emergency. I contemplated calling a crisis line but new that if I got the wrong number or someone accidentally said the wrong thing, that I wouldn't be able to handle it. I would splatter myself as Gino had done. From one moment to the next I didn't know if I was going to live or die. The gun was loaded. I was putting it to my head and into my mouth. My own mind had become my worst enemy. It would tell me that I had no friends and no value. For the next 2 years I would be in and out of serious depression. I would be seeking mental health counseling and I would be trying many different antidepressants. I needed Gino to live. I needed him to prove to me that people can get through tough times of depression. I needed him to show me that if you can hold on long enough, that things will get better. Gino didn't stay to prove that to me. It is now our turn to try to prove it to each other. Every person on this planet is valuable and has something to offer. I don't know how I lived through this experience. I think of the foot prints in the sand story. 1---WORRY I weigh myself down with worries of things that may never happen. In doing this I am weakened to a point where I cannot handle the things that really are taking place in my life. Take one day at a time. Deal with each challenge as it occurs. Have faith. 2---PAINFUL THOUGHTS Like a questionable foot-hold, I tend to avoid thinking about painful or disturbing thoughts and memories. In order to move forward, sometimes it becomes necessary to put my full weight on that shaky foot-hold, to think and accept those painful thoughts in order to rise above them, in order to move forward. 3---DEATH ZONE / DEPRESSION On Mt. Everest, upon reaching a certain elevation, the body begins to die. This is called (the death zone) Even if you are warm and have plenty of nutrition, this environment will not sustain life. It is important to get out of there as soon as possible. Depression can be just as deadly. If you’ve reached the death zone, you must get out of there. It may seem pointless but try using positive affirmations. Tell yourself something like -- “things will get better, things will work out” continue to repeat this over and over. Continue to do this every minute of every day if you need to. It may not feel like it is helping but like a tire with a leak, your positive affirmations will be as a pump putting enough air in the tire so as to keep it from becoming completely flat. The hope will be that you will live long enough to see a better day and that you will be glad you endured the hardships. I don’t know you but I do care about you and can relate to serious depression. Each of us are valuable and have something to offer. If you do have to give up, please know that I care and feel for you and please know that if I knew your name, you would not be forgotten, as long as I live, you would not be forgotten. Even if I only read about you in the newspaper, I would feel your presence and feel a emptiness from knowing that you are no longer on this planet. 4---FAITH TO SEE BEYOND There comes a time when we must look past that which we see, and reach out with faith for that which we do not. Lightning and the streamers from earth, they reach out to meet each other. ----parallel LIGHTNING / STREAMERS Before lightning connects with the planet, a very small charge of electricity or streamer, reaches up from the surface of the planet, and the two connect. The little, weak, streamer, represents us and our faith, reaching out for help. 5---SALMON Unless taken by accident or illness, the salmon continues to live until it reaches the end of its natural life cycle. It doesn’t get discouraged and give up prematurely because of it being afraid of what tomorrow might bring. -my friend, the salmon 6---ACCOMPLISHMENTS ?? People all over the world are taking a bow for their accomplishments, when the truth is, a natural chemical in our brains called serotonin, is largely responsible for our accomplishments. Often those who achieve the most are those who are fortunate enough to have a natural, healthy, amount of serotonin. Most of us do not understand how ignorant, arrogant, and fortunate we are, to have the healthy amount of serotonin that we have. It would be beneficial for the whole world to experience serious depression once every year for 5 minutes. I think the results would be that the whole world would stop what they're doing and not make another move without thinking things out very carefully. 7--- QUESTION ---If I feel little or no enthusiasm for life, does this mean I am living life improperly ? ---ANSWER --- Of course not ! What you are experiencing is completely normal. When we are children life is a continuous mystery that amazes us with each new experience. We view this world with new eyes as we play and explore our surroundings. As we grow older that mystery goes away and sometimes we are left feeling very dissatisfied with life or simply bored. Daily routine, work, responsibilities, and the like, rob us of our enthusiasm and cause stress. We cease to be as children. The choice is ultimately yours if you want to change your current state. I would suggest finding your inner child by learning to explore and notice the world around you as you once did when you were young. Break your current routine by taking a walk or driving a different way to work or going to a different store for milk! You know that old saying "Stop and smell the roses"? Well stop to look around once in a while and force yourself to notice things that you usually miss during your normal day. Whatever you do during your daily routine flip it around and put some excitement back into your life. This should start the ball rolling. The rest is up to you. And remember, if there was no struggle in life you would never know when the good times are. --- good advice from a internet acquaintance __________________________________________ KEEPING THE BREATH IN MIND from the book--Wherever You Go, There You Are by Jon Kabat-Zinn It helps to have a focus for your attention, a anchor line to tether you to the present moment and to guide you back when the mind wonders. The breath serves this purpose exceedingly well. It can be a true ally. Bringing awareness to our breathing, we remind ourselves that we are here now, so we might as well be fully awake for whatever is already happening. Our breathing can help us in capturing the moments. To use your breathing to nurture mindfulness, just tune into the feeling of it...the feeling of the breath leaving your body. That’s all, just feeling the breath. Breathing and knowing that your breathing. This doesn't mean deep breathing or forcing your breathing, or trying to feel something special, or wondering whether your doing it right. It doesn't mean thinking about your breathing either. Its just a bare bones awareness of the breath moving in and the breath moving out. It doesn't have to be for a long time at any one stretch. Using the breath to bring us back to the present moment takes no time at all, only a shift in attention. But great adventures await you if you give yourself a little time to string moments of awareness together, breath by breath, moment by moment. TRY : Staying with one full in-breath as it comes in, one full out-breath as it goes out, keeping your mind open and free for just this moment, just this breath. Abandon all ideas of getting somewhere of having anything happen. Just keep returning to the breath when the mind wanders, stringing moments of mindfulness together, breath by breath. ----- Wherever You Go, There You Are by Jon Kabat-Zinn TRUTH SEARCH 1 -- HOME PAGE http://maxpages.com/truthsearch TRUTH SEARCH 2 http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/TRUTH_SEARCH_2 POEMS AND STORIES http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/POEMS_AND_STORIES QUOTES AND SAYINGS http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/QUOTES_AND_SAYINGS DEPRESSION http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/DEPRESSION WEIGHT PROBLEMS http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/WEIGHT_PROBLEMS THE GOOD NEWS http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/THE_GOOD_NEWS MUSIC AND ART http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/MUSIC_AND_ART LOVE AND RELATIONSHIPS http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/LOVE_AND_RELATIONSHIPS WORLD BIBLE CONCERNS http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/WORLD_BIBLE_CONCERNS THE GREATEST CHALLENGE http://maxpages.com/truthsearch/THE_GREATEST_CHALLENGE |
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