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| Angels Never Forgotten |
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| August 27, 1981DJSeptember 10, 2000 |
August 27, 1981~September 10, 2000
Never Forgotten DJ-once tha bullwdawg, now an angel in my heart
I didn't know you long-only a few short hours did we meet before you were taken that fateful night.
I'll always remember when you walked in-the confusion on both our faces. We couldn't figure out how we knew each other, it was like dejavu.
You were the life of the crowd. It only took an instant to see you were a great person to have around. I'm glad I got that chance, even if it didn't last a single day.
I couldn't mistake the love you shared with your boys that only the best of friends have. I got a glimpse of how big your heart was. You were quick to make friends, especially with the girls. When it got too crazy, you calmed the chaos. You told me your story, laced with the fear and anger of all you'd been through. We tried to stop you that night, but your stubborness took over. I will never forget those last words, "It's ok, Shorty, we're cool." You gave me a handshake, with a sparkle in your eyes, and said, "Friends forever." Then you laughed, and said, "Even if we just met." You kissed my hair and let the Tanqueray linger in each strand permanently like a fragrant shampoo.
It's been awhile now but there's still so much pain. I see you sometimes-the look on your face when you flashed that smart grin from behind the "mansion's" bar. Laughing at your jokes or whispering to Justin about "that short blond" drove me crazy. I still hear you say, "Ya know the bulldawg loves you!" I still see the tears, and can feel their coldness on my fingertips. The "petting zoo" memories will always bring laughter to my eyes.
What made me and the Oakie go to Dripping Springs that night? Why not a night when we would see you the next day?
We watched over your boy and tried to ease his pain, and even colored cartoon pictures to hang on the grief-battered walls. He misses you everyday, and lives only in your memory.
But the questions will never leave and the guilt can't be erased. Sometimes I hate that night because I could've kept you here, and prevented the pain felt by so many. But I know you are in a better place now. I think of the hate you screamed that night and pray that God took away that anger, and that your days are filled with love and smiles.
One day we'll meet again. Next time we will remember each other and there will be no more goodbyes, and no more waiting. Tell Him thanks for letting me see you before he took you home, and watch over your boys-keep them safe so one day we'll be at the party together again-this time no one is leaving, we're in it together.
DJ-That's my memory of you. I know your crazy self is up there making an awesome angel. I'm sorry your life ended short, but thank you for letting me be "your girl", and be by your side in your final hours. Your memory, your face, your words, and your acts will forever be a part of me scarred in my mind. I don't know if I will ever get over that night, but I'm not ready to forget you. We shared so much that night, even the same first name. Maybe one day the confusing tears will fade. Can't wait to see you again!! Hope you are safe and have found happiness. I am forever grateful for having such an amazing person as my angel. Thanks for watching out for me, Justin, and Nana.
xoxo
Dani
****CLICK on "MISS MY BOY" (to the left) A Song Dedicated to DJ**** |
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