Reciprocity
All of a sudden its my favorite thing.
My favorite feeling.
When Im sending out some kind of vibe to someone
my husband, my kids, my friends, my boss.
And Im getting the same thing back.
I can sense it.
Feel it. Love it.
Were on the same page.
Ooh la la.
The universe is right.
Life is good.
Sweet communion.
Im not loving you more than you love me.
Youre not loving me, or needing me more than I need you.
Were not demanding something the other one doesnt want to give.
Or cannot give.
It isnt always so.
Theres sort of a horrible feeling when I discover Im loving or needing someone more than they love or need me.
It breaks my heart.
Sometimes when the reciprocity is gone
its gone for good.
Theres no getting it back.
The initial imbalance fuels a bigger imbalance.
And then it's good-bye.
But sometimes, something else happens.
Sometimes there are imbalances, and hurt feelings, and withdrawal, and a broken heart, and then,
Somehow,
Someway,
the scales swing back
to sweet reciprocity.
Sweet communion.
God I love that.
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