Poetry By Stacey Gomez - Poetry - http://maxpages.com/nichola/Stacey

Alone

here sit me and my lonely heart
all through my life it's been ripped apart
twisted and torn right out of my chest
leaving me to die and putting another victim to rest
once again my soul is free
but i think to myself is this how i wanna be
do i want to be alone and free of pain
out of all those tears what will i gain
but just when my happiness has begun
and i start thinking to myself i actually won
another one of you men
come back into my life and ruin it again
i know all men are not the same
but most treat love as if it were a game
i do not wanna be all by myself
like a lonely teddy bear sitting on a shelf
everytime i get hurt my friends tell me why
even with proof i still deny
i guess that is why i am all by myself now
cause i am never able to understand how
a guy can break a heart of a loved one
and then just walk away like there problems are now done
when my problems have just started to get bad
wishing that the one you loved you still had
why do i bother why do i try
cause everything i do to not be alone ends up making me cry
sometimes when i am alone i daydream
about me in a room and no one hearing me no matter how loud i scream
I loved you it killed me
don't you understand don't you see
but this is not the way i wanna be
you made me sad and dead inside
i feel like all my feelings are away to hide
my soul is scared and shaking
do you see my empty soul that you keep taking
i am scared to love anymore
and to be treated again like a whore
don't you see what you loneliness you have given to me
i say it once moore this is not the way i wanna be

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Back

i think about you day and night
wishing your eyes on mine were my only sight
hoping you will understand how much i really want you back
maybe this time you will not try and be such a mack
when i think about all the love u have for you
it makes me think all of the bad times are through
if i would not have fell so hard and hit my my head
and not have listened to all the sweet lies you said
but i am so confused i do not know what to do
i have to be a woman and get over you
you don't even understand the word committment
i know wanting you back is ignorant
but if i could help it i would have already
my heart no longer beats steady
but i can feel my heart is no longer sqeexed together
and it is letting go of you slowly to make it all better
i will soon realize i want you no more
and that loving you is becoming such a bore
wanting you back is the stupidest thing i ever thought
i hope you die and in hell you rought
but one side of me
wants you to be forever with me
but i do not know what is wrong with me for wanting you
and everytime you said your love was true
part of me wanted to believe it
but the rest did not believe it one bit
i want to be with you and i want to stay
but whatever you think and say
is not going to make me change my mind
i am going to push you harder to keep you behind
this is all like a game
but we all know who is too blame
sorry baby this time there is no score
cause i win and my decision is i don't want you anymore

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Come please

sometimes when i listen to you
you make me wonder if you are true
and all the things you say
forever in my heart they stay
if you only knew how much you will hurt me
my how crushed my heart will be
if all the things you speak
are untrue cause understand my heart is very weak
and i do not want no more lies
they turn out to be cries
i want nothing more than to be cared for
and loved even more
you seem the perfect one
and forever i wanna be with you hun
you treat me so right
you pick me up inside and show me the light
this and many others reasons is why i want you to come please
it will fullfill all my loving sweet dreams
you came into my life and you got me confused
but i am starting to come through and i want you
to love, to be with, to hold
my heart feels so cold
but soon i will have you near
i looked into the mirror
and decided you in my heart is what i want

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Dream

I had this dream once before
you say you love me and you want nothing more
but all of that is a lie you only wanted to change me
for who i really want to be
you tell me that you love me
and that doing this will set my sould free
i did not understand
so i grabbed your hand
and we went in your room
and everything happened so soon
now things are not the same
and i now i am to blame
like i said before i had this dream before
so do not use the same words or phrases to try and score
all it does is make me hurt
and fill like a pile of dirt
and you walking right through me
acting as if me, you don't see
that dream plays through my head
that night on the bed
i lost everything i ever had
i'm not mad or sad
don't know why
i listened to all his lies
but all of that is over now
i still wonder how
i lost my virginity to you
did i think you desevered it
what si wrong with me

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*****A Poem I Wrote About My Ex-Boyfriend (Matt)Please Read!!*****

I talked to you today.
even though i knew later my heart would pay
knowing that i can never be with you
i don't even think i want to
even though i miss the hugs and the kisses on my ears
but now all i have are tears
when you used to hold my hand
made me feel that you did understand
and now i know you did not
by the way we argued and fought
and the ways you used to treat me like shit
i did not think i deserved it one bit
i know you will say tell me how i treated you so bad
but i can't explain when you yelled all the bad feelings i had
i miss your arms around me
and the thoughts that we would always be
the way that you used to look in my eyes
made me think that you would never tell me lies
so blue and loveable
yet so evil and heart-destructable
but i guess i was wrong
and the road i took was a heartbreak too long
i never thought it would be this way
until what happended on that terrible day
when you decided that we should be no more
i guess i was becoming some kind of bore
as i sit here thinking i try not to cry
cause right now all i want to do is die
i would have never begun
if i new this is what you would have become
but that's ok i was sick of you bossing me around
and always putting me down
you sometimes made me so mad
and treated me so bad
Even though this is our second time going out
You still do not know what i am about
even though there were many times good,
there were so many bad times that changed the mood
and i do not want you anymore
you are different than before
i now know that
so i have something to tell you Matt
i don't miss you anymore,i don't need you anymore,
and i don't know you anymore
i am sick of trying
because all i do is end up crying
I hope this heartbreak is quick
cause you have already chosen who you want to pick
so i thought the sooner we were through
would be better for me and you
and my thoughts were right
so for it to be easier for me please stay out of my sight
Now that we are done
i guess it was you again who won
you were never there
and it made me think you did not care
i can for a while pretend
that to me you are a friend
but i don't want you back
because your trust is now what i lack
i now beg you please
put my broken heart at ease
i am just going to open my mind
find someone new and put you behind
seems that you were put in the past
painfully but fast
but i do not care no more
just because you want that fucking whore
does not mean i have to be sad
cause now i am kind of glad
that i am free from you
and the ways you told me what to do
well all those days are through
now what do i do

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Far Away

I know you're far away from me
but we can keep what we have going
Although physically far apart are we
My heart's not left you
Although I cannot see your face
i know that what i have for you is true
I can feel your love
even though we are not together
you are my angel sent from above
although i have never felt your touch
and even though i never felt your kisses
I already miss it so very much
Although we can not be together
cause we are so far away
our hearts will decide what is for the better
The distance that's between us two
Is really not so far,
Jusat as long as we are never through
are love will stay and we will share
the love i got inside for you is kept until we meet someday soon
But please, do not forget how much you really care
my heart will love you still
no one can keep me from feeling this way
Distance can't stop my love for you, No, nothing ever will.

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I Hate you my love

my love, i hate you
in fact i dispise you too
i hate each moment you are near
it makes me sick how sweet you were
your love for me hides in a little corner
and comes out for a short while
i hate this about you too
i just thought i would tell you that you make me sick
and all the happiness you bring me
makes my stomach twist and turn
my one true love, i hate you
no matter how much we try we are through
i Hate you for all you are
which is not much by far
this clash of love and hate
holds me down with pounds of wieght
i hate you, i love you, i hate you i want out
all these confusing thoughts make me want to shout
for all the things i love you for,
i hate you for so much more
you and what you are displeases me,
this is the reason i have to decided to get rid of you
evertime i try and make you let me in i get hurt
and i get nothing back from you so what's the use
so everytime i see you my love quests for the sign of why i lovwe you
but i always end up failing and that makes me start to hate you
and myself just for trying
so i sit here weeping my head upon my hands
do you see now why i hate you?, Do you now understand?
please don't bother denying it
decause i know it's true every bit
i hate you for not loving me, And me for loving you
my darling i adored you, but now hate is all i am starting to feel
displeasure fills my heart
but love is like a burning flame it's such a painful art
but now i've disappointed you
these truthes that i speak of make you sick now
you now see how i felt for so long
but you seem so strong why are you hurting now
cause i am getting over you
but why care for my hatred
When you cared not for my love?

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Just One Chance

What was i thinking when i did that with you
i think i was crazy how oculd i have gone through
it seemed real easy you and i were both there
i guess doing it would make me think you would start to care
it seemed like the right time and place
when i went through with it you should have seen your face
i still wonder now and i will forever more
why you do not love me anymore
i was taught that abstinance was thing to do
but you said it was ok and i love you
by the next day i felt really great
even the times after you were a good mate
but all it took was one simple time together
when you were in so much pleasure you could not feel any better
when it was time to pull it out
you really forgot what love was all about
i gave you what you wanted i gave you all you need
when my time had come and i did not bleed
i began to panic but i said this has happened before
i tired to calm down and said this will make him love me more
boy was i wrong to think such a thing like that
because when i told him, my matt
he was no where in sight
scared on by parenthood fright
after you found out it was yours
you fled to find all the nearest doors
the next few months seemed like hell
you didn't love me and i was blind to tell
the time has come to have your son
you are not even here to see his life has alreay begun
all my friends are by my side
it's no wonder you wanna hide
feeling the shame
because my pain is for you to blame
and now your son will never know his dad
this makes me and all my friends mad
if this is what makes you happy and this is what you wanna see
than so be it that's how it is going to be
i hope you life your life fine
knowing that your son you can never call mine
now it is over and now we are though
i just wanted to say i still love you
but it's all figured out that you just get one chance

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