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MY CLOSED HEART

i wish some one could see
all the hurt i have inside of me
i wish i could tell
all the bad things that make my life hell

i wish i could get help from others
as much as i help others
help to open the secrets of my heart
and put some love and peace back in my heart

does any women care about my heart
can some one see inside im ripping apart
is there a girl somewhere with a key
to unlock my heart and set it free

why am i closed inside
why cant i feel real love inside
am i lost to never have love inside
to smile and be dying inside

my closed heart,loving but closed
fighting off love,and needing it so
some times this loneliness brings me low blows
and my tears from past love heartbreaks start to flow

closed and locked
wanting this heart to unlock
and all the pain sorrow and greif
to stop

my heart
my most painful and hidden part
my secrets and passions in my heart
are closed inside this part
this part of my closed heart

BLESSED

i am alive today from a blessing
my whole life i have been blind
blind to my family and my blessings
and i thank my family and god for those blessings

i was a lost child on a road to death
i had a mother and grandparents
who prayed for me with their last breath

when i was at my death god brought me out
every tear i cried god wiped off
pains in my heart and mind
god and my families prayers gave me peace of mind

i have not lived a christian life
but i have had a blessed life
i thank god for that everyday of my life
for i have seen a lot of painful things in my life

i hope to see heaven and god
and change before i go see god
just to see him i would confess
and thank him for being blessed

MY WAR

when i awake i am at peace
when i walk out my door
i am at war

war to make something of my self
war to protect my family and my health
war to stay strong and gain money and wealth

this war is the hardest thing
it beats on me with everything
it beats my soul
it beats my pride
it trys to destroy everything inside
this war even attacks my pride

beat me,hurt me,even kill me
but this war will never break me
we will battle forever of
until my life ends and death takes me
with this war i have within me .

you

i love you more everyday and each time i see you
the very essence of why i smile is you
and i have all the memories of you
i love so i cry
sometimes i wonder why
you chose to love and im such a fool

you have given me so much love
you fuss at me a lot but i know its out of love
pick my ears and noise hairs
to telling me how the worlds not fair
i will listen and try to comfort you

i say i love you all the time
and i mean what i say you are the world in my heart and in my mind
i give all shouts to you
and all the love i get from you
and you better love me the way that i love you

the way i love is so subline
the art of how you make me feel
just simply blows my mind

i love you in a vapor
and im the smoke that covers you
and all of my heart simply belongs to you

and for the rest of my life i want to spend it with you

A FEVER IN THE NIGHT

LIKE DROPS OF PASSION YOUR LOVE FLOWS ALL OVER ME
I WANT TO FEEL YOU TOUCHING THE VERY HEART OF ME
EXPLORE MY SOUL AND MY ESSENCE
YOU HAVE AN EFFECT ON ME
MAKING ME SO HORNY

MY LIPS WANT TO KISS YOU AND EXPLORE YOU BODY
LIKE A RAINDROP ROLLING DOWN YOUR SOFT BODY
LET THIS WARM FEELING IN ME SURROUND YOUR SOUL
ITS LIFE FIRE WHENYOU TOUCH ME

I AWAKEN IN A DREAM OF WHIE CLOUDS AND DASIES
YOU FLOAT ON A CLOUD AND YOUR SIGHT IS PURE ECSTACY
MY SKIN FLASHES WHEN YOU ARE NEAR ME
YOUR VISION SENDS HEAT ALL OVER ME AND DESIRE WILDLY

YOU LOVELY HANDS MAKE MY STRENGH SIMPLY WEAK
WHEN OUR BODIES TOUCH
MY MIND AND SOUL TRY TO ABSORB EACH TOUCH
LIKE WAVES FROM AN OCEAN YOU CARRY ME INTO
SEXAUL BLISS AND OVER TAKE ME IN A WILD MELODY

THIS FIRE YOU POUR ON ME
MAKES ME WARN OUT AND INSIDE
MAKES ME SMILE IN WARMTH LIKE A MOTHER HOLDING A CHILD

A HEAT SO HOT,BUT IT SOOTHES ME WITH PASSION AND LOVE
IT SIMPLY FILLS ME WITH THE JOYS OF UNBRIDAL LOVE

IT IS THE FEVER OF PASSION WHEN YOU MAKE LOVE TO ME
I COULD LOSE MY SIGHT AND FROM YOU PASSION STILL SEE
ALL THE COLORS OUR LOVE SHOWS
WHEN YOU INTO IT WITH ME
A FEVER OF ECSTACY BETWEEN THE POWER OF YOU AN ME

LAST NIGHT I MADE LOVE WITH YOU AND YOU WITH ME
WE KISSED SO LONG YOU SIMPLY BECAME ONE WITH ME
IT WAS LIKE A STORM RUSH BY AND TOOK YOU AND ME
TO A PLACE OF SUBLIME SEXUAL TRANQUILITY

A PASSION THAT CONSUMED OR SOULS
AND LEFT OUR HEARTS BEATING OUT OF CONTROL
A FEVER IN THE NIGHT

By Scottie Qualls

WHAT MAKES A MAN

The power to admit your wrong
Is the hardest for a man
But if he loves you
He can swallow his pride for you

A man will do his work
Will get up work
Even when hes sick or hurt

A man will provide for his family
Not eat so his family can eat
Not sleep,just work all night
And suffer and stay on his feet
Willing to die for his family to eat

A man will give all to win
And if defeated
Will rise and try again

A man will keep his faith
Fight evil
And keep god in his hearts place

To build a family,to protect and care for his family
To stay on one course and fight for life
To raise kids and love his life,that’s a mans life

My missed friend

Man I really miss you
Its hard coping with the loss of you
The way you died
As I helped you around the block
And in my arms you cried
Stay strong is what you told
Before you died

How in the hell can I be strong
When it seems with out you,im at the end
The first boy I ever got drunk with
And the only guy I hung with
Both of us crazy in the head
Man it hurts so bad because your dead

To know a person you love is dead hurts
But for them to die in your arms
There is no word for the hurt
I never told you I love you,I do
We were tough and it was something we just didn’t do

If I could take your place,I would
You know it to
I would have died just to save you
Sometimes at night I hear your voice
But then you disappear

I still cry knowing I want see you again
Until I see you again
I love you
Till we meet again
Goodbye my missed friend

Dedicated to Carlton Rhodes and Ramon Ware

I miss you both………..scottie

Written by scottie

Scotties Soul

Closed from joy
Very open to pain
Being scottie
Is carrying a heavy ball and chain

Born on earth with out a father
When he needed a mans reply
Only brought tears to his eyes

Confused and mislead
Upset in his head
Caused scottie to do things
That worry him when he goes to bed

Good at heart
Even from the start
But dealing with life
Tore the goodness apart

Scotties soul is kind
It enjoys having peace of mind
Also wanting
The one he loves in his arms to just unwind

So scotties not great
And hes not bad
But a good life is something
Scottie has never had

Put through a lot of pain
All the tears
He still smiles
Through the hardest years of storm and rain

A boy he was
A man he has became
Of trueness and right
And in life trying
To keep it right

And be scottie
A cool happy
Somebody trying to please everybody

THE MAN

Everybody says im the man
You drive a twenty five thousand dollar car
Work two jobs
In college living like a star
Bank investments and going far
So that makes you the man I would say
And tell them im not and I don’t want to hear any more ok

What I have I worked hard to get
A lot of blood sweat and tears for it
No one gave it to me
People only tried to take it from me

The man I became in my struggle to live
150% of effort is what I had to give
my honor for life
my heart for only my future wife
my pride as my strength for the rest of my life

those and only those things
help me through my battles and struggles in life
so the man I am not
but a man I am
no better ,nor worse
just a man on a steady course to be the man.

my heart

every day i go through so much torment with out love
i can still feel the scars it leaves me
the cold hard facts of life
and the painful things in my love life and it hurts so so deeply

my heart is a golden thing
i can make every one smile even when im dying
my gift has been my poems and my helping hands
i help every one out of my heart-the true good part
but sun never shines on me

im blessed to have a good job in my life
but the pain those women cause me cuts like a knife
i live my life in stages and im always wearing a frown
and know one knows cause i hide it real good

my heart has a poewrful love line
i can sing and write poem fresh out of my mind
i am connected to a place so so deep in my heart
that if i open it ,it would shine like a star

inside me is a vortex of emotions
a large and kind soothing emotion
my days of fun are gone and my old heart carries on
but i pray for true love and willing to wait if its true

my soul has no space and time
i have written a lot poems made a lot of people smile
and when my heart does dance the moon and the stars dance
and i make a melody and sing a song or too

my deepest emotions wont hide
my true sweet feelings over take my pride
i dont hate those who hurt me
because once you love you love
but its hard being me and holding your pain aside

i have suffered in my room at night
writing for an answer for this pain inside
so if i die today and my life has gone away
remeber what it was to love scottie
and that he always stayed true
in his heart.

My life

July 1, 1972 I was born
Born to be a man
But I didn’t know god’s plan

brung up in violence
And forced to keep secrets silent
Knowing I had to fight
When deep inside I wanted a peaceful life

Was I a bad seed?
But grew up into a good seed
Through years of pain
I was strong enough to stand the pain

My friends are many
My loves are many
But still pain is in me with no sympathy

Pain is always here
But I am a man and cannot shed tears
If I could I would cry
Tears of joy
Tears of pain
Tears of past friends
Ill miss through my years
This is my life, my world
Loving but cruel
Because I don’t have a woman in my world

My ups and downs
My thuggish life, I lived
And how I turned it around
The ones I helped and the ones I let down

All this comes to mind
In my life, my time
My world, my people
And all the loves and good times
I've come across in my time
All have a part in my life
Yes my life

MY WORDS

MY NAME CAN BE FORGOTTEN

MY LIFE MAY MEAN NOTHING TO YOU
BUT MY WORDS WILL LIVE ON AFTER YOU

THE WORDS I WRITE IN MY BOOK
ARE WORDS FROM THE SOUL
SO LOOK AND FEEL
AND DONT JUDGE MY BOOKS

MY SOUL WILL DIE
MY MEMORY WILL PASS
BUT TO THOSE WHO READ THIS
MY WORDS WILL LAST

WORDS

ITS HARD TO SAY THINGS
ITS ALSO HARD TO EXPRESS THINGS
THATS WHY I WRITE DOWN THINGS

TO SAY WORDS IS HARD
TO WRITE WORDS IS EASY
YOU EXPRESS YOUR SOUL EASILY

WORDS MAKE YOU LAUGH
WORDS MAKE YOU CRY
BROKEN HEARTS HEAR WORDS
THAT MAKE THEM WANT TO DIE

WORDS MAKE LOVE
WORDS MAKE HATE
IF SAID WRONG
WORDS CAN DEVISTATE

WORLDS OF WORDS
WE USE EVERYDAY
CHANGE OUR LIVES EVERDAY
AND IN EVERY WAY
WITH WORDS.

BY SCOTTIE QUALLS

MY FEARS

WILL I SUCEED OR FAIL
WILL I SEE HEAVEN OR GO TO HELL
CAN I CONTROL MY DESTINY AND NOT FAIL
OR AM I CURSED LIKE HALF THE WORLD
ON A ONE WAY TICKET TO HELL

WHY IS LOVE NEVER TRUE
WHY WHEN HURT,DOES IT RIP YOU INTO
SOMETIMES I WONDER IS ANYTHING TRUE
EVEN WHEN YOU FIND TRUE LOVE
THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS TO OVERCOME AND DO
YOU GO THROUGH HELL JUST TO KEEP TRUE LOVE TRUE

MY FEAR IS FAILURE AND LACK OF HEART
BECAUSE THE ESSENCE OF MY STRENGH IS MY HEART
MY INSIDES DONT BEND FROM POWER IN MY HEART
BUT STILL IT SHEDS TEARS AND HAS FEARS
THAT COMES FROM PROBLEMS IN MY PAST YEARS

A MAN WHO FEARS NOTHING IS CRAZY
THOSE WHO DONT ARE NOW PUSHING UP DAISIES
I FEAR GOD AND NO ONE ELSE
BECAUSE HE IS THE KING OVER EVERY BODY ELSE

TO FEAR IS TO LACK ACHIEVEMENT

TO OVERCOME IS TO PROMISE A FUTURE
AND I FEAR NONE EXCEPT GOD
AND I KNOW I HAVE A FUTURE

INSIDE MY BROWN EYES

LOOK INTO MY BROWN EYES
EYES OF PASSION
BALLS OF ATOMIC FIRE
EYES THAT GLOW WITH AN UNBRIDAL PASSION
AN UNCONTROLLABLE DESIRE

MY EYES SEE VISIONS OF BETTER DAYS
SOLUTIONS I MADE BETTER WAYS
SHEADING TEARS ON HARD DAYS
WHEN PAIN GETS IN MY WAY

ME AND MY EYES HOLD IN THE PAST
ALL THE BAD THINGS MY EYES SAW
I WISH SOMETIMES I COULD FORGET THE PAST
BECAUSE I WAS BAD AND BROKE ALOT OF LAWS
IN THE PAST

I HURT A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT LOVE ME
UNTIL THIS DAY IT STILL BOTHERS ME
MY EYES SAW THE PAIN ON THEIR FACE FROM ME
AND I WISH I COULD REDO ALL THE WRONGS MADE BY ME

I CAN ONLY TAKE WHAT I DESERVE
A LOT OF HATE AND HARSH WORDS
I WISH FOR FOGIVNESS OF PEACE TO PRESERVE
BUT ONLY THOSE WHO FORGIVE UTTER A WORD

LIKE A RIVER FINDS THE SEA
I WILL LIVE DIFFERENT AND CARE AND LIVE
LIFE A LITTLE MORE FREE
JUST BE TRUE AND BE ME SCOTTIE

ALL MY FAMILY
AND THE FEW FREINDS
IN MY EYES ARE THE ESSENTIALS
FOR HELPING ME BE ME ,A FAMILY MAN
WHOSE DESIRE IS TO HAVE A FAMILY
AND A BIG PIECE OF LAND

TO WALK AND HOLD MY WOMANS HAND
UNTIL MY TIME IS UP ON THIS LAND
AND MY EYES ENTER GODS LAND
AND THATS WHAT YOU CAN SEE IN MY EYES
MY BROWN EYES ,THE EYES OF A MAN

IN THE FIRE

You always have a chance to shine
If your famous you always get to smile
A day when you’re a king
Can do anything that your heart dreams
When your fire is flaming

Inside your heart is a fire
Burning with love pride and vanity
Your so bright you out shine everything

But there is a pulling void
Your flame seems to fade to gray
When love come in the way
You always turn away
Always outing your fire and simmering your flames

In this fire is a past love
The essence that once fuel your fire
Which is now causing you pain
Making you think years of love down the drain
Downing out your beautiful flames

Only the strong fires live
Overcome and burn higher
Looking for that one true love
Hot enough to quench their desire
Which roars like wild fire
Their hearts fire, yes in this fire

By scottie qualls

ALISON
Written by Scottie Qualls

as i lie down and the chill of the air hits me
each little chill reminds me of you and and me
how it would feel if you touched me
and the tingles your soft hands would have on me.

your name haunts me and i always think of you
its amazing how i can get a craving for you
and always pull up that picture of you:)

alison is carved in my soul and on my heart
no one can ever tear thast name from my heart
you are the essence of the fire that burns in me
and my fire is burning hi and shining out for you from me

your name is like a song in my mind
i do my time keeping you off my mind
knowing your not my lady just a friend of my mind
but its times im not feeling so strong
and i need to think of you to getalong

so until i die even if i never see you with my eyes
your name will be the easy rain that washes my pain
and the vortex of my heart-

just you .........love scottie:)

my love
Written by Scottie Qualls
Dedicated for to lori cormier

you are my life in words and in my heart
the essence of you is what my heart now needs to live
my smiles are because of you
and deep in my heart i really love you to

earth could not hold how much i love you
i cry now as i write to you
happy tears and a smile because of you
god bless me with a god sent angel thats you

the music in the rain when i hear it is you
my heart heals its wounds because of your love
i will marry you and be the prince you need and want
i question myself if i love to much of you

you have the power no woman has ever had and it weakens me
but you are the woman that changed scottie
the beautiful child with a ravishing look
and the snake that laid a lovley bite on me

i love you and everything about you and all of you
you are the drops of water on my moutain
and the waves in my see
you are my love.

SO COOL

Life is something that goes on and on
The pains in life seem to go on and on
But I am a true man and I will and must live on

The evil words and things I said in my past
Im sure has a lot of my enemies wanting to beat my ass
The way I arose to power
How my words made the fall like a tower
How I seem to rise with street power
Over my enemies breaking their strengh and power
Smashing them like a shoe smashing a flower

I am not a gangster
Nor am I a prankster
I am a man living in a different world
To smooth to be played by a girl
To smart to be out smarted
To wise and mindful to be played like a fool
Through years of pain and learning
Yes I am just that cool
I had to learn the hard way
Being hurt and treated like a fool
Awaken me and those are the reasons I am so cool.

THE POWER OF PRAYER

I AM ALIVE BECAUSE OF PRAYER
I HAVE BEEN PUT TO DEATH SEVERAL TIMES
BUT SOME ONE PRAYED AND BROUGHT ME OUT OF THERE
MY LIFE HAS BEEN REBORN ,FROM THE ARMS OF DEATH
COMES A MAN STRONG AND REBORN

A PRAYING MAN ,ALL THOUGH IM NOT THE BEST
BUT WITH PRAYER BEHIND ME
I CAN PASS ANY TEST

BAD MOST OF MY LIFE
AND CAUSING MY ELDERS A LOT OF HEADACHES IN THERE LIFE
BEING A THUG AND TRYING TO BE HARD
NOT KNOWING YOUR NOT REALLY NOT HARD UNLESS YOU HAVE THE LORD.

OUT OF DEATH MY EYES NOW SEE
ALL THE BAD THINGS ABOUT ME
WITH THE POWER OF PRAYER I WAS SAVED
FROM BEING A VICTIM,DEAD AND OUT OF HEAVENS WAY
TO BECOMING A MAN AND THINKING ABOUT HEAVEN ALL DAY

SO PRAY AND PRAY ON
BECAUSE ONLY WITH PRAYER WILL YOU LIVE ON
AND OVER COME DESPAIR
ONLY WITH THE POWER OF PRAYER.

SCOTTIE QUALLS

BEYOND

On the wings of life filled with love
We soar like doves
All souls good fly to heaven
As all memories fly to the heart
Holding the gates of heaven and earth wide apart

Seeing his or her love ones
Smiling and having everlasting fun
Feeling the unhurt joys
And talking to the ones missed
That have already passed on beyond

Able to laugh with friends
Make love
Make peace
Make amends
To try and correct wrongs and make rights
Before beyond begins and takes my human life

God will come back
God will judge us
And only the pure in heart will go beyond
To see jesus beyond

SAIL INTO ME

My heart is a vessel
You are the river that runs through me
Your waves move me in a steady way
When the tide rolls in and your melody starts to come alive
Your tides heal me from hurts inside
When your river sits still in my soul is peace

When my anchor is rested
And nights moon is rested in space
Angels fly down from the clouds and circle the rivers place
Your pure blue passion seem to glow around me
Like the waters of love inside me
Pushes an under tow of love between you and me

Your waters cool me while in you river floating
Your rapids quench me
Fast and quick strokes all over me
It feels good when you sail into me
My heart is the ship
And soul is the sea
You can turn and toss me
But my love wont let you break free of me

My ship is made up of passion from you and me
The deeper your sea ,the stronger the ship is in me
My love and soul mate to be
Dive in with me
And sail into me

By scottie qualls

THE WAY I LOVE A WOMAN

I love a woman like a dove loves to fly
staying tender to her ,wiping each tear if she cries
telling her i love her no matter what
giving my soul to her hoping its enough to lift her spirits out of a rut.

the way i love a woman is true
there is not anything i wouldnt do
i tell my secrets in my heart and my mind
and kiss her and tell her i love her all the time

the way i love a women is of my souls essence
given out of me a way that she knows she is my souls essence
the fire which is down in me
the power that can destroy me

the way i love a woman,it honest and true
like my grandparents loved long and true
so i set my soul to one and only one
to love and cherish and bring me some little ones
that is love and it is so so true
that is the way i love a woman
and the way love is supposed to go to.

by scottie qualls:)

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