Poetry by - Denise Gail - Send your comments to Gail - sugarpied@yahoo.com - Poetry

My Plead
My head is spinning
Stop trying to relate , Stop!
It's making me angry,
It won't stop.
Lord make it stop,
Take me to that deserted place,
I want to scream.
Body stop trembling,
Heart stop aching.
This hurts.
Stop these thoughts
Furiously roaming through my head.
Make it stop.
I'm on my knees now,
Beggin you please,
It hurts so bad,
Take this insanity from me please,
Or please just take me.
-Denise Gail

Suicide Plan
Go deeper, she pushes the glass into her skin
I can't live through this pain,
I won't.
Just cut through the skin, would ya.
Please make it quick.
I am not crazy,
Just hurt.
This isn't quick enough...
What can I use?
Her eyes search the room
Search for a sharp object.
Maybe this cigarette will do,
She shakes her head,
No it'll only hurt for a minute.
Gazing out the window she thinks
Maybe I'll jump,
Hell no it's only two stories high
I'll go in the hosiptal
And just get fuckin sympathy.
The last thing I want or need.
Maybe just maybe
I can get him mad enough
Mad enough to beat me to my place
No he'd never.
I'll just get stoned,
Stoned until I can't live any longer
Or drunk
Drunk until the alcohol kills me,
It does kill,
And has.
Starving myself hasn't worked yet,
Too many people know already.
What shall it be?
What shall it be?
-Denise Gail

Misery
I've searched this world
I'ver searched my soul
Still haven't found what I am looking for.
Where's all the happiness
And the peace?
I wonder who's got it all.
Cause I don't.
You tell me to be patient and good things will come
I can't wait anymore.
Where's my big break?
I'm tired of waiting on the shelf
I've already been read millions of times
Still nothing.
I guess no one takes risk
At least not with me and mine.
Tell me what it is I need to do,
And I shall try.
Please I don't want this misery anymore.
-Denise Gail

Signs
When I think of you my heart hurts
But my mouth smiles.
You gave me the best years of my life,
I love you girl.
I'm sorry it had to end as such,
I wanted and needed so much more.
I'm scared,
I look in the mirror
It's not my face that appears
It's yours.
I'm real scared.
Tell me what that means,
Is death close to me I wonder.
If I could, I'd have mirrors everywhere
Just so I could see you.
You are sending me signs
Signs of what though.
Is it that I am doing wrong,
That I already know,
And that may never end.
Please help me my friend
Please Aprill help me,
I'm scared.
-Denise Gail

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I look in the mirror and all I see is pure ugliness,
Wish I could see past it all but I don't know how.
I am ashamed to be seen by those in the world,
Scared of what they will see.
Will they see the ugliness or can they possibly see past that?
I wonder what will come of me,
I wonder if I will end up dead.

As I sit alone I think of how it used to be,
I can see a smile or maybe that was a mask.
I am all confused,
My mind so cluttered.
Who is she,
And why is she doing this to herself?
Does she see the risk she is taking,
Or does she even care?

Poor little child she feels she has no one,
She feels so alone.
What is she to do,
Who will she turn to?
Why does she have to be alone,
What did she do to deserve it?

Where did all the love go,
Where is the one I used to know?
I wonder does she love herself,
Or will she indeed die?
-Denise Gail

I Love You

I love you,
Not for what you do,
But for who you are.
I love you,
For loving me,
And for giving me the time of day.
I love you,
And I believe god sent you from the above,
You are such a blessin'.
I love you,
As you say the things you do,
And the meaning to the words.
I love you,
For the way you hold me,
I have never been held as such.
I love you,
Because you treat me with respect,
No one has treated me like a princess before.
I love you,
For looking me in the eyes,
And telling me only the truth.
I love you,
Because you are so special to me,
My precious baby.
I love you today, tomorrow
And everyday to come,
Just because I love you !
- Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

The Light

His kind, gentle words
Echo in my mind.
His soft, precious touch
keeps me warm at night.
His beautiful smell
Lingers in my room.
He is the only vision
In my sight.

In his eyes
I see hurt and pain.
But my heart
Will wash that away.
My hand
will touch his wounds.
My voice
Will sing him a lyabye.
His heart
Will feel my love.

For he is my sun
Washed away my rain.
He is my sanity,
kept me from going insane.
And soon in a blink of an eye
He will see the light,
my love.

-Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

Pure Growth
In her blue eyes there appears to be a shine,
In her soft spoken words there's growth.
Her warm hug allows you to feel love,
Within her beautiful smile there's gratitude.
Her walk reveals her pride,
At her home you can feel serenity.
Her poems read change,
Her dreams hold freedom.
To another she shows compassion,
To another she speaks courage.
As she shares she speaks in all honesty,
Upon her tears allows surrender.
As she laughs she shows happiness,
Within her silence there's patience.
In her serenity prayer there's hope,
Upon her beliefs there's faith.
As she works her recovery there's willingness,
Being open in the rooms shows her trust.
Today her heart is warm,
Her mind is open,
Her words honest,
And she is willing.
This young mature lady has beauty inside and out,
In all aspects she is growing tremendously.
And now all her dreams will stay alive.

-Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

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Babies

Precious
Gold.
Sun shine,
Moon light.
Tiny fingers,
Feet and toes.
Laughter
Tears,
Warmness.
Joy,
Happiness.
Precious gold,
Sun shine,
Moon light,
Babies.
-Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

My Friend

My friend,
Precious
Gold.

My friend,
Candle,
In the dark.
My friend,
wind
Beneath my wings.
My friend,
Guardian
Angel.
My friend
till
the end.

-Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

YOU
Someone to chat with,
Share secrets.
Deep thoughts and fears.
All hours of the night,
Till morning light.

Someone to laugh with,
Cry as well.
Tell wishes and dreams to,
Fairy tales and fantasies.

Laugh aloud,
Cry aloud,
And speak aloud.

No reason to hide,
Cause you have a friend to confide in.

Because you have me,
And I am lucky cause
I have you,
my friend.

-Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

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Like a rose,

My love for you will for will never
writher up and die.
There are no doubts about us,
But my fears of losing you
As my friend, my lover and my boyfriend
are greater than any fears I have.
You have brought to me
Joy, and security.
I am so afraid of losing that.
You are my sun,
That sun has never shone before,
Now it shines bright and frequently.
It never rains anymore.

My heart has never felt such relief
My mind has never been at such ease.
You have given me a gift,
I am now allowing myself to love,
To be loved and to care so greatly,
I have never been able to do such things.
Life before you was so lonely,
And depressing .
I didn't know what to do with all my feelings,
The feelings that were so bottled up inside.
I had so many feelings that needed to be released,
So much love that needed to be given.
Now that love and the rest of the feelings
Are being released,
Released to you!

I am giving you my love without any doubts,
I am releasing my feelings with security to you.
You are the first and maybe the last ,
Who can feel my love and my feelings.
You are the first and maybe the last,
Who I truly love.
I love you!
- Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

Love Making

Thunder and lighting
Pulse rising.
Sweat mingles
Between two.
Waves crashing
Bodies combine.
Eyes meet
Words exchanged.
Muscles tighten,
Waves crashing
And the sun shines.

Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

If it Wasn't For You

An easter wish just for you,
Because you are so special to me.
Where in the world would I be,
If it wasn't for you.
You are the kind of parents
Who care and love me so deeply.
The way I need you to be.
I can speak my deepest thoughts,
Share all my fears.
Thank you for being there
Though out the years.
You have always been there
When I was alone and scared.
There to rock me asleep.
There forever, you showed you cared.
You make my frown, turn upside down.
You have always been there.
For that I thank you,
For you I thank god.
You make my life so much easier,
Where in the world would I be,
If it wasn't for you ?

Thank you!
-Denise Gail
copyright@1999.

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