Tears' spilling down my cheeks
onto the floor
I'm the only one alone
The only one who knows my pain
No one understands
There's no one to help pull me up
When I am down
My friend's are the one's hurting me
They don't care though
I'm just wasting my tears.
Christine Crackett 2-14-98

REFLECTION
Look in the mirror
Can you face yourself each day knowing that you hurt me?
Think how I feel
How you would feel if you were me.
Kiss him!
Think of me.
Hold him!
Think of me.
Love him!
Think of me.
Feel the pain, the hurt, the sadness
All caused by you.
I can look at my reflection each day in the mirror
But, can you?
With all your bullshit lies and false friendship
I know I never hurt anyone
More than you hurt me.
I would never cheat you,
The way you did me.
Friends are forever
But some are
lost and gone for eternity
Remember why you had me?
Remember why you lost me?
Each day when you wake look in the mirror.
Christine Crackett 11-27-97

SUICIDE
I take the knife out of the drawer
deciding whether or not to use it
I have no reason to live
my life is pure hell
I let it puncture the flesh on my wrist
just enough for the blood to trickle onto the floor
I can't believe I'm doing this
I whisper to myself
Pictures of friends and family
flash throughout my mind
I can't do this
I drop the knife and call for help.
Christine Crackett 4/29/98

My hearts' wounds bleed openly now,
As each word is like a
nail being dug deeper and deeper,
The puddle is growing
wider and wider,
The bloods' flow is
getting slower,
My heart is entirely drained
I can no longer feel anymore pain.
Christine Crackett

DROWNING
Drowning in a sea of my own tears
Everyone sees but no one helps
Starting to realize what friendship means
Secrets, Lies, Betrayls
With each gulp of water
I understand more and more
We live in a world where no one
Trusts, Cares, or Listens
Breathing is harder now
Still I can hear
The sound of people laughing
At what though, I wonder
Blackness is caving in on me
Only a moment to realize
They are laughing at me.
My last thoughts are
Why do people exist?
To hate?
I'm gone now
No one notices, no one cares
They go on living,
But I?
I go on drowning in a sea of my own tears.
Christine Crackett 11/27/97

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