My Poems On Death - DEATH - Poetry - http://maxpages.com/myxsoul/My_Poems_On

Stop the pain

Pull the blanket of intoxication over me
And block out all the pain that wants so badly
To introduce itself to me
Constantly my heart tears at my chest
Tears well up from deep inside me
It's a fight to live real life
When everything I once was living for
Is now a shattered dream

^
Pain Pain Pain

There is no hurt like the one she gave me
No hurt like the last.

There is no hurt like the one she served me
That hurt is in the past.

The hurt she provided for my life
is like a knife plunging in the blood of life.

But now it is healed
It has taken some time
This hurt so devine.

These walls have been broken down
Since you have come around.

Because of a new love
I can learn to trust again.

How was I to trust another after what she had done?
Sink deep into the flesh of another someone.

God sent you to me to heal the wounds that
she opened so deep inside me.

You are the girl with whom I will stay
The girl who has made the pain go away.

I feel in love with what I expected you to be
I love what you are deep inside of me.

^

No me?
if there was no "me"
would anyone care?
would they cry when they realized
that it was all them that did this to me
the ignorance and the contradiction that they put forth for me
sometimes I try to die
but all I can do is watch the blood trickle from my wrists
and cry
I dreamt dreams before
that have my family and "friends" sitting together
crying over my body.....
laying on the floor lifeless
that is my ultimate desire
I want them to know how I feel everyday
the pain that I deal with
the shame that I go through
the hatred that I come upon
the fear that I try to confront
and the faith that I loose every second

^

Death

It's quite remarkable how Death can follow a person around so closely.
Testing them.
Slowly killing everyone around them - one by one.
Determining the person's will to live.
For wouldn't a person dream of his own sad story to end if everything around them is slowly ceasing to exist?
How though, may I ask, would someone vanquish his own life,
if Death, himself, were playing games with him?
If I could be one thing, I would be your tears;
Born in your heart, Live through your eyes, and Die on your lips

^
Should I?

The thought in your head,
Repeating their words.
Final resting bed,
The temptation lurks.
Pull the trigger?
Use the knife?
Come on you can do it,
It's only your life.
The friends you will miss,
Will miss you too.
Do it or not,
Don't know what else to do.
Live that life?
Or as you call it lie.
Is it really worth it?
Do you really want to die?
When you are gone,
What will they think?
So nervous now,
Don't dare even blink.
Your decision is made,
No turning back!
Life passes your eyes,
Whole world's going black.
Before it all fades,
A tear drops from your eye.
Good-bye to this world,
No more living this lie.

^

Hell Is Knocking

When this life is over, and it is no more,
Where I am going, I will never know
I try to live my life to the fullest, but it seems the dullest
That is when i hear it, Hell is knocking on my door

I hear it knocking, not inviting it in
But it knows my life is full of sin
So if i die do not cry , let me go with peace in your mind
for at least you know heaven is where you will go

and when your there you wont care
that you cant find me where you are
but friends and family are not far
and you wont remember im burning in fire

but if perhaps my life has a relapse
and i go far above
ill see you there and hug you with care
and youll know eternity we will always share.

Our Last Kiss

You held me in your arms
As the rain came pouring down
You look me in the eye
Neither of us made a sound

We knew this was coming
But we tried so hard to push it away
All we wanted was to be together
But what do you want today?

Our love was so strong
So wonderful and dear
Who would have ever known
It would all end up like this and here

You stand over my dead, lifeless body
Your eyes streaming with tears
Why did this happen you ask
As you give me our last kiss.

The last time I saw you
(Jen "1982-1997")

I saw you there
lifeless, and still
i wished this was a dream
i tried pinching myself
nothing, this was real
i practically collapsed
when i saw you blue
not moving
looking so sad and pale
i ran over to you
tried to pull you down
but the rope around your neck
wouldnt budge a bit
i never got to say goodbye
i can feel myself start to cry
the pain just wouldnt go away
as i cut the rope
with all my strenghth
i lay you down
on the floor
and kissed your head
i went to the phone
and called 911
they asked what was the emergency
i cried you have commited suicide
after they came
and the coroner left
i could feel my heart break
i went to your room
and sat on your bed
i fell asleep
thinking of only you
i couldnt get rid of the thought
i wasnt going to see you again
i cried and cried
and put a sign on your door
for every morning
i would read
i wasnt going to see you anymore
i put a kiss mark on it
and taped it up
and from this day forward
you are still in my heart.

Pain

Pain...
digging deeper and deeper
into my heart,
eating away at my soul.

Eternal and immortal pain...
excruciating, devistating pain.
Noone to depend on.
Lonliness.....
Total morbid lonliness....
Blackness...
fearful darkness...
creepy crawly lonliness.
Noone around...
secluded on this island of problems
surrounded by waves of worries.

Eternal, Immortal, Excruciating,
Devestating, Morbid, fearful,
Creepy crawly, Secluded
waves of
PAIN.......

Adam Wolbransky
Philadelphia	Pa.
USA
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TwistedDreams42o@aol.com

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