My Love Poem Part4 - Got Love? - Poetry - http://maxpages.com/myxsoul/My_Love_Poem

I Am Addictive

I must confess
I am a user
I have a addiction
An addiction so powerful
So strong

This addiction that I have
I crave it each day
I have to have it
I need it to survive
I can not do with out it

When I open my eyes each morning
It's there, in my mind
Where will I get it today
Where can I find it
I will search for it all day
I have to find it

This addiction that I have
Will leave you blinded
Where you can not see
Not two feet in front of you

This addiction that I have
Will take your breath away
Grasping for your next breath
Will you live or die

This addiction that I have
Can be your worst nightmare
Loss of sleep
Loss of eating
Loss of weight
But my cravings I can't contain

This addiction that I have
Can leave you with destruction
Worst than any tornado
Not leaving any path to take

This addiction that I have
Can grip your heart so tight
Take you to your knees
Tears will fall from your cheeks

This addiction that I have
Will take you above the clouds
Heaven and stars you will see
Forever and beyond

This addiction that I have
More painful than anything
You could ever imagine
If not used correctly

This addiction that I have
Can leave you lonely, sad and blue
Such darkness with no light
Yet I crave it more each day

This addiction that I have
When darkness falls
When all hope is gone
You will start to shake, and shiver
Putting covers over you
You still can't stay warm

This addiction that I have
Requires no needles to shoot
Nothing to snort thru the nose
Or even drink into your system

This addiction that I have
If used correctly
Takes everything away
Stars and heaven you will see
Forever and beyond

This addiction that I have
Can be your friend or enemy
Is a thing called
" LOVE "

Loving you

My love for you isnt easy
Cause I got to please you
Good and easy and
If I dont watch out
For what I do and say
Then your not goin to love me
Like I love you

You were the best thing
That ever happened to me
And I lost you forever cause of that
One thing I said and thought and
Know your gone forever
And my heart is broken
Because my love for you was
Unsinkable and ive lost
You forever just remember
One thing that I love you alwayz and forever!

This Night With you

That night, that I first met you,
That day that we first spoke,
That moment we first looked into each others eyes,

The day we first held hands,
I could feel the excitement racing through my body,
The night we first kissed,
I knew you were the one, and I could never let you go,

That night we first made love,
I felt my body exploding with such passion for you,
The day you proposed,
you already had my heart in your hands,

That night, walking along the beach,
The moon shining so bright,
I look at you, to gaze into your beautiful eyes,
but find an emptyness, burning inside,

Where did the passion go? where did the love go?
Why are you telling me that we can't be together anymore?

You had my heart in your hands,
You threw it away
You tore it into two,As I sit here, this night watching you walk away from me,
Watching you leave,
I silently call out your name, muffled by my cries,

This night you left me, I am slowly dying inside,
This night you left me, I am crying so hard inside,
this night you left me, I am no longer whole inside.

Attack and Destroy

I felt a pain like no other--
It tore through me like a hot knife through butter.
I tried and tried to make it go away,
But the more I did, it wanted to stay.
My spirits dropped with great speed and severe force
Like a knight in shining armor riding his horse.

Others began to notice a difference
In my attitude towards life and existence.
They noticed the sadness eating me alive,
So they did everything they could do, to get my spirits high.
But nothing they did changed the way
My emotions felt everyday.

I wish I knew how to make their help work--
I hope they didn’t think I was a jerk.
There was only one person who knew what was wrong,
But she went to school nine hours along
An interstate system that runs into PA.
The only way for us to talk now is through Computer.*

So I sit and I look, staring off into space
Out the window in front of me with this look on my face.
Not a look of fear or of anger, not something that strong,
But the one you get when you feel all alone.
Like when there is no one to talk to or no one to listen
To the story of what’s wrong and what I am missing.

So all I must do is sit and wait
For that special person to come to me by fate.
I once read of the heart being surrounded by a wall
That began with an insecurity and grew very tall.
The only way to break through is by care and affection.
I think someone has already begun destruction.

Although I’ve met someone who’s started to break it free,
At times I still become very lonely.
It’s not her fault--Why would it be?
It’s just that damn wall that is getting to me.
The only thing I can do now
Is hope and pray she will knock it down somehow.

I have this strong feeling deep inside,
She is going to destroy it with great pride.
And if she decides to attack and destroy
I will be there waiting, wanting to be “her boy”
I knew she was special from the first day we met
She gives me that warm feeling inside--It’s something awesome to get.

Inside the shirt

Underneath my shirt, close to my heart, is a wound that bleeds
it's a painful reminder of the love we made, that no one sees
though it hurts me, I still treasure it, because it helps me remember
the times we had, and the love we shared, so warm and tender

Deep in my heart, I always knew, that you could never know
the roads I've traveled in the summer's heat and the winter's snow
I don't blame you for anything, I know you tried to be a friend
but what I wanted was your undying love until the end

When I'm feeling numb from life's inequity and tortuous turns
my secret cut bleeds for love that was made, love that was spurned
I cry my secret tears and pull the scarlet cover around my chest
for the love that loved and lost, was also the love that loved the very best

AGAIN

Ask a question. Get an answer.
But it's nothing you can use.
Still it's something you will think on
from a friend you'll never lose.
Love is never known for reason
though a constant in your mind,
it's a reaching out for someone
who's not really there to find,
but you will go there anyway.
and you will play the game we play,
you will go there anyway.

Give a little. Take a little.
There will always be some more.
It's that something you are needing
it's what everyone looks for.
Then it comes to you, the feeling,
and you know it has to last,
you've forgotten to remember
what you've hidden in the past.
And you will go there once again.
You'll play the game like you did then,
you will love it once again.

Weakness and Distress

People hear my voice although i hardly speak
they see me as strong although i am so weak
whenlife faces you then you can't face your fears
you can only wipe away so many tears

somepeople like myself seem only to speak out in anger
especially at the people who like speakingout their ass
to methey aren't real so their pain doesn't affect me
they never search for anything just expect itto all come to them.

whenyour ashamed to show your face
like a shiny but worthless rock
whenyou feel days are just a waste of space
the time has come to stop.

BLIND

Realizing fantasies
you dance through people as you please,
singing songs of rights and wrongs
that echo through the trees.

Mesmerizing everyone
you show yourself and then you're gone
never taking quite enough
to know what's going on.

You could be somebody's dream
if you were only what you seem,
but your eyes turn love away
and that is what they scream;

Playing keep away, you toss
the questions you can't get across,
reaching out just far enough
to see there is no loss.

I could be the end of you
if you would do what you should do,
open up your eyes to me
and see what it comes to.

All Alone

all alone
sitting here wondering
thinking and looking what is to be
and to come and how it is
just staring around looking here and there
doing nothing just walking around
searching - thinking - looking
doing this and that - wondering what
when and how and why
just thinking about this and that
now and then - here and there
and about him and her - her and me
about us - about my life - stuff like that
all alone
just wondering and thinking
are any of us really alone

I Had A Thought

I Had A Thought
a thought of such love
and desire - emotions and feelings
I had a thought - a thought about you
night and day - dreams and thoughts
with endless emotions - feelings and desires
for my heart beats and pounds and my pulse races
when I think of you every moment
every second and day that passes by
I think of you - I think of you more and more
and falling deeper and deeper in love with you
our love just grows and becomes stronger
and stronger our heart beats faster and faster
my pulse races and races with emotions
feelings and desires is what I feel
endless love - endless times
and as time goes by
I love you more and more each day
my heart's beating faster - my pulse is racing
oh me - oh my - what am I to do
I am falling deeply and madly in love with you
I'm crazy about you
I am so passionately in love with you.

Judge Me

If you want to judge me by my looks
Or the clothes I wear
Judge me then by what you see
'Cause I do not care
If you want to judge me by my mind
And thoughts that I hold there
Judge me then by what I think
'Cause I do not care
If you want to judge me by my heart
You may find it bare
But judge me then for love that's gone
'Cause I do not care
If you want to judge me by my faith
I believe in God and prayer
Judge me then for religion
'Cause I do not care
If you want to judge me by my words
My feelings that I share
Well judge me then by what I write
'Cause I do not care
Be the judge of my whole life
I do not think that's fair
But judge me then for who I am
'Cause I do not care

Night

Early morning sky
The town is yet asleep
A time of innocense
And thinking thoughts so deep
In the quiet and the peace
I listen and I see
The calming of the night
And it sets my spirit free:Crickets sing their song
Cool breezes on my face
Stars are twinkling bright
Up in outer space
A slug, it slithers by
A bird lets out a tweet
The dew upon the grass
The flowers smell so sweet
A spider builds its web
A mouse is running fast
The birds are singing more
I know this night won't last
'Cause sunlights just a hint
The day will soon arrive
Quintessence of the night will fade
The town will come alive
But I know that soon again
The night returns once more
And, once again, I'll feel this peace
Just like I did the night before

A Peaceful Storm!

Listen

a subtle exhale
of breathing rain

a rythmic moan
of depth

smooth vibrations

a graceful array
of violet flickering

a gentle breeze
a blue blanket

the sun is sleeping

my heavy eyes close
as my ears relax

to the peaceful storm's
soft hush

Hearts
I scream in agony, cry out in pain,
as the tip of the arrow goes straight through my brain,
from my brain to my heart, the pain does spread,
I'm numb on the inside, to the world I am dead,
those words that were said, that night in my room,
come back to haunt me, my impending doom,
You laugh as i cry, and draw Your bow once more,
holding it against my heart, right at my core,
You look at me and with a grin,
the arrow is shot deep within,
straight through the wall of trust You had built,
the pain is inevitable You feel no guilt,
You laugh as i cry, and then walk away,
to find someone new, with whom You can play.

FALL DOWN

As I look around
Bodies strewn across the ground
They all fall down
We all fall down

You got your gun
You got your knife
You got your rope
Tell me, when did you lose hope?
We all fall down

What a wasted life
Teenage skin pierced by the knife
Familiar faces lost to the night
Like the many more that wait
They all fall down
We all fall down

So much happening before my eyes
Their pain so deep it wounds the sky
They all fall down
Why am I left?
We all fall down

The Promise
( A Message of the Heart)

A promise held within a breath,
Flowed from soft satin lips
Dreamt pure words of love.
Concealed between light fingertips.

Written in words to consume the soul
A process of waiting for dreams to be true.
Reminisce the love which was blind.
And its endlessness reveals to you.

From the heart, unveiling whorish sins
The lies which prod to confess
Churning beneath a swirl of lust
Where words remain title-less

A message which is committed
To hands which cannot see
But feel and tell the world.
And judge those tenderly.

A written elements within your movements
Within a secret that hatered could not take.
The feeling of true loves simple rules.
With words I shall partake.

Meaningful words written in notes,
That slipped my simple fingers through,
Whispers which remain conceive to me.
But I still promised to always love you.

Deep Soul

Sweet Imaginings,
you tease my soul
with visions of an unattainable dream.
a tortured mind
receives no rest
So awake I lay,
my body turning and churning,
to the rhythm
of an eccentric heartbeat
and blood burning.
No peace with me tonight,
the demons of desire
deem me their god,
taunting me underneath
their silkscreen of servitude.
My heart throbs,pleading and needing
a love for a lifetime
I alone hear
the pitiful ploys never succeeding.

Adam Wolbransky
Philadelphia	Pa.
USA
E-mail me!
TwistedDreams42o@aol.com

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