OUR FIRST KISS On December-15-2003 Robert Schmidt asked me to be his girl.. We were under the cross in Boise Idaho when I said yes. there we also had our first KISS. He was the first guy to kiss me with respect like he new what I was thinking. And every kiss I got from him was just like the very first one BREATH TAKEING HOW HE SAID HE LOVED ME Why I love you By Robert Schmidt To Patricia Potts 08-18-2004 I love your brown eyes and your brown hair I love your body I love the way you talk to me I love the way you told me you loved me I love when you tell me how your feeling I love when you kiss me I love when you hold my hand I love when you hug me I love when you could talk to me I love when you like to spend time with me I love it when you express how you feel I love the way you look at me I love it when you tell me not to give up I love it when you don’t give up I LOVE EVERY THING ABOUT YOU HOW I NEW I LOVED HIM I thank God he sent you to me, For you and I were meant to be. We have a bond too strong to break, We have a love no one can take. In you, I have found a love so true, My heart is filled with love for you. Every time I see you, my heart skips a beat, You make my life whole, you make my life complete. My love for you grows more with each passing day, The thought of your gorgeous face takes my breath away: Those brown eyes fill my soul with happiness, Those luscious lips I love to kiss. The day when I become your wife, Will be the happiest day of my life. Even thinking of that day makes me smile, I can't wait 'till I walk down that aisle. I dream of that day when we'll both say, "I do" For always and forever... I will love you. WHEN THINGS GOT BAD Robert began to ignore me he had moved in with his friends and stopped taking my calls every time I did get a chance to talk to him .. He always told me he missed me and that he wished he could see me. But when I would find a way for us to be together he always came up with something or some reason why he couldn’t go I had a job that was going good and I left it for him, every time he called for me I was there but when I needed him he found an excuse not to be there. His friends then began telling me that he was with another girl.. And that he said a bunch of stuff about me. I never thought he could make me feel like I was worthless until that week seeing all the pictures of us now make me cry because all I want is to have my best friend back the guy that loved me I want Robert with out his friends. and for the longest time i thought i was selfish but it was him. WHY WE BROKE UP We broke up because he was drinking every night and day going out with his friends and I couldn’t trust what he would say. He never made time for me it was all about his friends. They came between us and they had his ok. He use to tell me every day that when it came down to it he would put me above his friends he had asked me to marry him I had his ring and everything . But in a blink of an eye he changed and it was his friends. ….. I love him so much but I cant make him love me back …. TIME IN JAIL on August 10-2004 Robert went to jail .. I got a phone call from him an hour before he went in he began telling me that he was sorry and told me that he was going to jail in an hour I then told him that I could no longer trust him and that I did not know who he was on September 28-2004 I got a letter from him . Telling me that he has been thinking about me and what he has done .. And he asked me to wait for him. He had told me that what I said really made him think and that he is ready to change … and to put me before his friends ANOTHER CHANCE 09-3-2004 I have now received about 7 letters from him and in those letters he has began to win my heart I am having the most difficult time to decide if I should give him another chance or not .. I do still love him with every thing I have the one problem I have is that I still can not trust him .. For all I know everything he has said . Could only be words he told me that when he gets out he plans on making things better for the both of us I just don’t want to put my self back in that situation I want him to be able to prove to me .. To show me that when he says he loves me that they are not just words. I put this all up on this web site to have a chance to be heard to be able to see what other people think .. So thank you for taking the time to read all these emotions