It still really hurts
I know it's only been a day
But the pain is getting stronger
Instead of going away
I'm still so confused
I need to kiss you again
But Ami is now
And I am back then
She gets to have you
I'm screaming inside
I want to get away
But there's nowhere to hide
Death doesn't scare me
Like it did before
Each day I'm alive
I miss you all the more
I'll be your friend forever
But it will always be the same
I fall in love with you
And you play your little game
Control your life; I won't
Becuz you have told me not to
But there's nothing you can do
To keep me from loving you
I love you, I need you
What else can I say?
These words don't matter
Now that you've gone away
If there was a way
To describe how I feel
Then maybe it'd be easier
For my heart to heal
But the words are jumbled up
Inside my broken heart
Even if I could read them
I wouldn't know where to start
Friends just numb the pain
Which in the end just makes it worse
It seems that with a burden
I carry around a curse
Loser, peice of trash
That's all that I am
I'm living my life
The best that I can
But I'm not enough
Cuz all I want is you
You don't seem to care
And even if you do
You can't seem to show it
Cuz you might make me happy
And oh what a crime
If that should ever be!
God, I need your guidance
Where do I go from here?
I don't want to live my life
Wallowing in my tears
Father, show me the way!
It's hurting so very bad!
I'm sick of crying
I'm sick of being sad
Take away the pain
Bring him back to me
Please let it be Your will
For us to always be...
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