My Testimony - 1 Thess. 5:16-18 - Miscellaneous - http://maxpages.com/lynziez/Life

Being a second child, I always looked up to my older sister. So when one day she told me she was going to Heaven and I wasn't, I was more than willing to do whatever she said so I could go to Heaven, too. I was only three and really had no idea what I was doing, but my older sister helped me say "the prayer" and then life went on as usual.

I've grown up in a Christian home and I've always been a people pleaser. I hated letting people down, especially my parents so I was a pretty good kid. I didn't cry as much as many other little kids and I didn't ask for much either. I spent most of my elementary years homeschooled until fifth grade where I started attending a Christian school.

In fifth grade I was the sweet little girl who didn't say much and always spilled something from her lunch on her clothes. But in sixth grade I was the leader of my pack and was being a jerk about it. I treated my friends like they were less than me. But then seventh grade came along and I went to a summer camp where I learned that my life was not headed the direction God wanted it to be so I rededicated my life to Christ.

The Junior high years of my life are the years I could easily have lived with out socially, but Spiritually, I grew more and more in my Walk with Christ. Jesus wasn't only my Savior, but also my best friend by the time I reached highschool. Then came the downspiral.

I dated a guy who I became nearly obsessed with and completely lost my focus on God. So God didn't hesitate and I suffered my first heartbreak. Then my first year of highschool was over and I began dating someone else who seemed to make all my dreams come true. But I still hadn't recovered in my Walk from before so God ended that one pretty quick, too.

Throughout my first two years of highschool I obsessed over the same two guys and got my heart ripped out of my chest and trampled on a dozen times at least. Finally, I was over one and dating the other. But after five months of an insecure, shaky relationship, my heart was crushed harder than I had ever imagined it could be. But I was on the rebound like no one else so my friend introduced me to someone who I very quickly began dating. Every minute I spent with him I knew God didn't approve of, but I needed someone to help me get over my recent heartbreak. I cried almost everynight and prayed for God to help me be strong and know what He wanted me to do.

So He sent me to a Teen Leadership Conference in PA and I met an amazing guy who I thought was the one for me. This helped me end it with the "rebound" and start figuring things out. This also proved to be a very shaky relationship, but I learned a lot and grew from it. After I was finally willing to admit that he was not the one for me, I realized I wanted to be with an old friend, who became my best friend.

Sadly, my Walk has been mostly characterized by relationships with people... guys specifically. I dated this best friend of mine and still consider it the best 6 months of my life. He meant/means the world to me. But we made huge mistakes, ruined our best friendship, and ended up ruining the relationship all together. I think through this God is teaching me to not be so dependent on people, because people will always let you down. So I am currently finding satisfaction in my Savior, rather than in some guy.

Of course, the Christian life is a constant battle, but I refuse to give up. Depression and tears took up most of the first month of my college life, but God slapped me across the face, if you will. Nothing dramatic happened, He just keeps reminding me of all He's blessed me with and that I have no right to snuff out the gift of life He so lovingly and generously gave. I'm definitely not anywhere near where I would like to be, but I keep crawling along the straight and narrow. Some day my Savior will come!

Here's thanks to the amazing friends God has blessed me with throughout my life...

Ashleigh-for being my very first friend and always being so much fun. So, college girl, come visit me soon!

Kaleena-for being my friend when I was new to the outside world, and for listening to me go on about the most boring things.

Whitney-for being my best friend, through thick and thin, rain or shine, for almost thirteen years. Where would I be without you as my closest best friend? I mean, would you be the best swimmer ever today? Always love your tiolet bowl, remember the cheese, and THANK YOU SCAMBODIA!!!

Dava-for coming to EBCS with me and puting up with me all these years. And also for attempting to learn from my incredibly dumb mistakes. :)

Raeann-for listening to me when I give you advice and forgiving me when I tick you off. And also for not being afraid to jump at the chance of doing something I'm too chicken to do and making me do it with you.

Phil Patrick-for the memories...six flags, sixth sense, abu...and for loving me. And thank you so much for forgiving me when I've failed to be a good friend. Thank you for the past and the present friendship we share. And for going out of ur way just to make me happy.

Billy Joe-for the advice freshmen year and telling me to "listen to my shoes." There is nothing in this world that could replace you. I'm sorry I forget. Thank you for remembering. Thank you... for everything.

Richard-for forgiving my bitterness and truly caring as a friend. And for fulfilling so many dreams, and telling me how much you care for no reason.

HannahKim-for listening to me when no one else at the lunch table would. And not only that, but actually hearing what I say and remembering it. I will always cherish our friendship. I miss you and I love you. Never forget Freddie!!

Anna-for being a great friend even though I can be a major bane often. Don't give up on anything and keep trusting God!

Ashley Hines-for the memories we had so much fun making over the summer and being my friend even when I'm not the most faithful friend back. One day we will record our own cd and become so famous.

Jonathan Blow-for getting over being "tight" and taking a walk with me. You've taught me so much. Keep in touch! [Je t'aime.]

Jamie-my dear roommate. I love that we click so well! Your sweet and extremely goofy ways have helped me survive my first year in college. I will always cherish you!

Thomas-for all the back rubs and reminding me what it's like to get butterflies. I'll never forget you! You are my very favorite wrestler. Bud... you need God. Not just when times get tough...

Matty-for being the most amazing encouragement Ive had in ages! I'm so glad we're getting to know each other. Keep smiling!!

Derek-for talking to me at TLC and keeping in touch... for introducing me to Matt... for being honest... for being so much fun... for being such an amazing encouragement... for inviting me to the banquet... for laughing. Just.. thank you :):):)

My Father God-my amazing Savior, words could never express Your beauty. I love You. Thank You.

*Friends are those who truly know you and still love you*

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