Someone asked,
"Do you still like him?"
I shrugged...
Easiest answer when I haven't a clue.
Then someone asked,
"If you were given the chance to be his...
Would you take it?"
Yes
No doubt.
No hesitation.
I knew I wanted you.
And then...
I shrugged...
I haven't a clue...
11-15-01 |
The words I said...
I know I meant them,
But when you began to cry
I wanted so bad to take them back.
Anger built up with every word you said to him.
I couldn't seem to hold it in.
I prayed for the words to say.
I prayed you'd understand.
But I took over and let it all out.
Maybe I was right in telling you how I feel.
...Please don't marry him!
He's not right for you...
Maybe it just wasn't the right time.
If I were right in saying those words,
how come I cry?
All my life I've thought all my opinions
Were just "little sister talk."
But maybe you really care what I think...
Maybe just because I'm your baning little sister,
Doesn't mean you don't cherish me
And my feelings...
...Don't marry him!
He's not right for you...
...Please don't cry.
I love you, Jen...
1-2-02 |
A step into the darkness...
I thought I saw it coming but then
I didn't even feel it's presence
Until it was too late.
Why didnt I stop it
Before it consumed me?
The sirens have grown so weak
From overuse.
The red flags are fading to white...
When will You give up?
How many times will You test me?
How many times do I have to fail before
You make me win??
Consumed by the hot breath
Scortching the hair on my neck...
Whispering in my ear
Telling me it's okay,
Just one more step...
A step into the darkness...
I saw it coming
But I just kept walking...
5-12-02 |
He was a thief
And a murderer.
Few knew of his ways.
not once would he blink
Or show a bit of remorse
While committing his crimes.
He stole hearts.
He took pleasure in slow torture;
weeks...
months...
years...
Continuous beatings
That hardly left any mark at first
Yet penetrated so deep
He left scars on the inside.
He concentrated mostly on one heart at a time...
Sometimes two.
But when there was nothing left of the one,
Only bruises and tears,
He finished it
And gave it back.
They say it'll heal over time.
But only those who've felt his ways
Know the truth.
The only man who can heal this fallen heart
Is that murderous thief
With his shallow words,
And broken promises...
6-23-02 |