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 I USED TO DREAM I used to dream of you and me and how it would be I dreamed of how we would feel when we were really really real I dreamed of waking up each day you beside me lighting each new day A morning kiss held in your arms being close when there were storms I dreamt of eating meals with you kneeling down to pray with you to rub your back when you were sore even list'ning to you snore looking in your eyes of blue watching each thing that you do to share what happened all day long listening when you sang a song I dreamed so many dreams of you and not a single one came true we never got to sit and talk we never got to take a walk I wanted to be with you at night and see the ocean in moonlight I never got to see you laugh or share something we cut in half we never got to spend a night saying silly words before good night we never woke way before dawn freezing cold or way too warm or woke each other with a loving touch needing each other so very much we never heard each other sigh knowing we had satisfied the longing we'd waited for so long waiting for us to belong together, and begin forever love, our heads would spin So many dreams I dreamed of you things we talked of me and you so many things that won't come true oh love, what will I do? I'll still be forever loving you and know I meant nothing at all to you. I used to dream so many dreams you said you did and it did seem nothing left but tears I cry you left, no reason, no goodbye. but always ~ I'll be loving you. I'll have memories, a pressed red rose and my little statue © KisSoSoft@aol.com, 1999 MY LOVE You are the owner of my heart. Once yours we'll never be apart Without your love I need not live, and all my love to thee I give. You are the keeper of my soul, to love you forever is my goal. Together we need never fear, the voice of God in this I hear. Beloved I give you all of me, and promise to love you fervently. Through all time and eternity please love me too and let me be the one to love and comfort thee. I ask our Father let this be, you and me through eternity. All you'll need I want to be, will you be everything to me? Copyright by KisSoSoft@aol.com THIS MORNING this morning, I woke up crying because you're so far away... so distant... nothing is the same - will it ever be again? you're leaving me slowly a little more each day a little at a time my heart feels broken and I miss you the way we used to be you and me the hopes the dreams how we laughed and talked and I ache inside the hunger the longing to be with you the dreams we had and I wonder why? how? without you my life has been in vain so much sorrow so much pain until you loved me and I loved you and I still do but like wisps of smoke you're vanishing, disappearing as I cry and wonder where you are where you've gone. how could this be? there's no more you and me? then I should die there's no more reason to live except to cry and wish and wonder why. maybe it was a dream and I woke up, this morning...? Copyright by KisSoSoft@aol.com 1998 PROPHECY - THE DAY I DIED Today must be the day I died and I haven't yet begun to cry for all the broken dreams, for all my deep down silent screams, so many promises unkept, the nights I never even slept. How I ache to be in your arms, to hear your voice with all its charms. I long to feel your loving kiss, for us to share the promised bliss. How can I still love you so much? Still long to feel your tender touch? And yet, for so long I have known, you'd gone and left me all alone. I can't even start to express the awful, aching emptiness, my soul has lost its mate - this is the cruelest trick of fate. How can I face tomorrow so full of all this painful sorrow, to live without the hope that all the words you spoke could still somehow still come true, and there'd still be a me and you? Yet, in a strange way there's relief not facing all this daily grief, with each days new cruelty as daily you took out on me revenge for others from the past; that's all it was love, in the past. You made me pay for all the times they stabbed your heart with silken knives. I know, my love, they were your fears that closed your heart, your soul, your ears, made you distrust the solemn vow I gave you as I bowed to God. You had from me the deepest love, as God's my witness from above. But still, you ran away from me, and didn't even stop and see as I took my last breath. Losing you has caused my death. Copyright by KisSoSoft@aol.com HE LOVED ME MORE I feel such lonliness, a deep emptiness inside Nowhere I can go, no place to run and hide. Once I felt such happiness, my heart so full of joy, but the only man I ever loved, my heart he did destroy. How do I greet each day, to never see his face? How could he leave me waiting in that awful place? How can I live without the joy, not a single ray of hope? If he never holds me in his arms again, how will I ever cope? To never feel his kiss again, or hear him say my name... How can I endure such unendurable pain? I gave him everything in me, all he ever asked He promised me forever love, he said that it would last. Gladly he accepted the gift of all my heart. He said he loved me more, and that we'd never part. Now I sit in the deep dark lonliness of sorrow and dispair - what happend to our love, so pure and very rare? Did he ever really love me, or was I just a game? Does he think the others and I are really just the same? When I had fears and ran away or tried to run and hide, he'd roar his mighty lion roar and bring me to his side. He told me that his love was true and if I left he'd die; I swallowed all my fears so my beloved wouldn't cry. Now he's gone and left me and I truly wish I'd die - with all his words he had no faith, he didn't even try he couldn't really love me, was it all a lie? Without a thought he broke my heart, didn't even say goodbye. Copyright 1999, KisSoSoft@AOL.com DEAR GOD Dear God, how can I live without my love? Mercifully look down on me from above. With all the tears that I have cried, how could it be, I've not yet died? Why didn't you make me what he wanted? Someone pretty he could have flaunted? Please I beg you erase from me, the memory of how he made love to me. How his touch set me on fire. Never before flames leapt higher and higher. Don't let me remember his gentle kiss, or how in his arms I felt such bliss. Take from me my broken heart, he doesn't want what was his from the start. There's also the matter of my soul ... Useless! Without him never will I be whole. Dear God, please call me home to Thee for I cannot bear such misery. Abandoned, alone, in that strange place, crying, knowing not one face. In my life I sought not many things, not money, fame nor diamond rings. I never knew real love or happiness, but this time I thought finally I was blessed. Dear God, why did you let me love him so if in the end, he'd leave and go? He didn't want the things he wrote not with me, I'm such a dope. Still, I'll cry 'till my life is done For me he is the only one. So little did I mean to him Promises made, only whims. My tears and agony all in vain He left me just eternal pain He walked away, easily discarding All my love, worth not a word in parting He left me like the one before me left him In hatred, but for her he'll yearn 'till his eyes grow dim. Dear God, please answer one question for me. Did he ever really care even a little for me? Copyright 1999, KisSoSoft@AOL.com  THESE POEMS MAY NOT BE COPIED, REPRODUCED OR USED IN ANY WAY WITHOUT THE EXPRESS WRITTEN PERMISSION OF THE AUTHOR. 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