Sojourn
©2001 by Teri Geahlen -1/31/01
I needed to stand in the snow,
Wind-burned face and frozen fingers,
Indifferent to the bitter chill, and this
Hurt almost as much as making fists in my
Own hair and tugging until my eyes water,
But looked much less silly.
(As though I cared).
I need so desperately sometimes.
To hold myself out in the rain and wind
And to be Right just once in awhile,
Correct in my assessment that I'm
Uncute and unloveable, and
Hardly adorable, and
Unworthy.
(I wonder, though, if I'd so eagerly
Iindulge myself in such exquisite elemental
Pain if I weren't sure that the bus would
Be here to pick me up
Any minute now).
$57
©2001 by Teri Geahlen -1/09/01
He was your best friend once, but,
Now discarded like last week's coffee grounds,
He casually mentioned on the phone last night
Something you once made him swear not to tell me:
An early faux pas, a premature "whoops,"
An error made too soon after the promise,
You nonchalantly groping a stranger
While I sat home thinking of, waiting for, You,
In blind, content stupidity.
It's funny how it made me snigger last night-
Time and indifference heal all-
But knowing would have killed me at the time.
I'd have drowned instantly
In sinking, weeping, self-reproving grief,
Wondering what I should have done
Sooner, better, differently.
At first, I gasped in feigned disbelief,
Then the appropriateness struck me,
Our eleven years boiled down into the image
Of an overpriced hand job:
Me awkwardly squeezing a stranger,
You wishing you'd stayed home
And saved your money.
Aura
©2001 by Teri Geahlen
No warning, just
A momentary disassociation,
Pulsing pain, vague discontent,
Glittering crescents of
Brilliant light and
Ultrasensitivity. A
Flash of fear short-lived,
I've grown accustomed
After all to setting life
Aside involuntarily
For a few hours.
It holds me fast wherever
I happen to be, forcing a
Compliance once dread
But these days strangely
Welcome. And I settle
Into Me, as hours pass and
Worlds go by, immersed in
Self-centered unavailability.
Later, drained though relieved,
I move slowly and sleep
Sound. It's funny how
They come on with remarkable
Similarity: Migraines and
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Awe
for May Beth
©2001 by Teri Geahlen
I can always tell when
Michael's out of town
Because you come in to work
Looking wretched and exhausted
From moping and not sleeping
And missing him.
What I always say is "PUKE!"
But what I really mean is
You're so damn lucky to have
What everybody wants
But few actually manage to hold on to:
A marriage almost as old as me,
Him, waiting when you get home,
Living with your best friend,
Someone who misses you when you're not there,
A hug whenever you need one,
A voice softly encouraging you
To skip work and stay home with him
Just this one time...
Love that has endured and evolved,
Defying age and change and time.
I ought to be jealous, you know
But my overwhelming admiration
Leaves no room for envy.
Ode to Chicken Kiev
©2001 by Teri Geahlen
His herbed heart with dagger pierc'd
His oily life's blood drains away
He settles back with gurgled sigh
Into his saucy-riced array
I tease him into tattered bits
Devouring with a chilling hunch
That here's repast I'll soon regret
Tomorrow I shall bring my lunch
Changing The Toner
©2001 by Teri Geahlen
Open box containing new
toner, removing new toner cartridge
and all the other crap needed for the job.
Remove old toner cartridge from
printer and place in new toner box
for recycling, as it is both
legally and morally wrong to merely
throw away a used toner cartridge.
Take the Q-tip thingy and
caaaaaarefully clean off the
delicate looking little wires.
They're really not all that
delicate, you know, but still, be
sure not to accidentally snap one
off and, for the love of god, DON'T
leave the X-acto knife laying
around where it might accidentally
open itself and cut those damn
delicate wires thus rendering your
10-year-old-and-quite-obsolete
printer useless and forcing you to
get a new one.
Also use the Q-tip thingy to clean
down under the semi-delicate wires,
even though the instructions do not
tell you to do this. Trust me.
Remove cruddy windshield wiper
looking thingy from it's hiding
place. It's hot, so don't handle
it too much. Say "eecch" and throw
it away. Take new windshield wiper
looking thingy out of it's
package. You'll need the
scissors. Use the clever little
felt thing on the end to clean that
other part of the printer that
likes to get dirty. Remove the
clever little felt thing and throw
it away. Then put new windshield
wiper looking thingy into the old
one's place. Check trash can to
make sure old hot one isn't setting
on fire all that paper in the trash
can (which you were supposed to put
in the recycle bin, you Earth-hating,
unethical jerk). Wasn't that satisfying?
Vigorouslyshakeandrockthenewcartridge
todistributetoneropentheprinter
cartridgedoorgraspthesealingtapeandfirmly
pulloutsealingtapemustberemovedfor
tonertoreleaseinsertthenewcartridgeinto
theprinterandclosecoverturnonprinter.
Oh, that's right, you were supposed
to have turned the printer off before you started...
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