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| Balance by Moffit Rating/Warnings: PG; dark thoughts. Trowa POV. Disclaimer: Not mine. Balance. The whole world depends on it. Too much weight one way or the other and everything comes crashing down. You have to go carefully, testing out each step before committing your weight to it. It could all come tumbling down if you miscalculate. One foot in front of the other. They're watching me. They all are, waiting to see what I do next. Waiting to see if I can keep my balance; waiting to see how long it will last. To see if I lose it, go crashing for the ground in a misstep. The pressure seems to be coming from everywhere. Be careful! A little slip and it's all over. A stumble and you won't survive, won't be there to be reassuring to everyone, to make sure everything turns out alright. But the expectations, the tension of acting as if everything is in control, everything's fine.. Which is stronger, you or the thin line you walk trying to reach the safety of the platform? Sometimes it's hard to tell. Sometimes you feel like the it's easy to walk that line, like it's nothing at all. Sometimes it feels like someone is jumping up and down on it, waiting for you to fall away. Balance. There isn't always going to be a safety net there to catch you when you fall. There won't always be someone there for you, someone waiting to catch you. You have to trust that you just won't fall, that you're strong enough to walk that line. Am I strong enough to keep walking this line? I wonder sometimes. I wonder which is going to break first, me or that fragile-seeming bit of wire? A tremor. A wobble in my step. Seems it's impossible at times. Everything pushing and pulling at you. Everyone wanting something, wanting you to prove your strength, wanting you to show the world that nothing can touch you, that you're invincible. But. Sometimes you just can't handle it. You overbalance. You put too much of yourself into trying to do what's expected of you. You spread yourself too thin. You become as taut as the wire, until you snap, holding on to that last little bit desperately. Falling. I feel the wire digging into my hand as I cling to it with ebbing strength. I can't hold on forever. My fingers are slipping even now. It would be so easy to let someone else walk the line for a while. Let someone else try to balance everything out. To keep everyone happy. Try to, anyway. Until they find that they aren't strong enough either. Balance. It all needs to be carefully weighed, the good and the bad. It can be overwhelming. I know. I tried to keep it balanced. But as my fingers slowly gave out, I found that I wasn't strong enough to keep that balance, and there's nothing and no one that can help me now. I'm sorry, I think to myself as I close my eyes and let go. owari Rate this fic! Back to Fanfics by Moffit Back to Fanfics |
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