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Hello, my name is Jamie, and I am vice president. As many of you I have had a hard life and for you to get to know me better IA m more then willing to tell you some of my life troubles and hard times. I have been to a large number of funerals, which can fill my heart with enough pain to last me a life time. My God father was killed in a car accident in 1993, which I loved him dearly, my cousin Cally Jo was hurdered only a couple of months ago. Which I was very close to, and she was younger then me, I am still trying to get over the thought that she is gone. and Also my great aunt who was a nun, who had a great impact on my life and my belive in God. It is very hard to loose important people to you. And there is no really good way to help with your problems then to talk to somebody.
The day after I found out that Cally was dead I decided I had to go to school to get my mind off of everything. I told one friend what happened and the next thing I know I am having a nervous break down. I had to go home after that and rest for about a day. My friends were very suportive of me, and talked to me alot about my feelings, which I think helped alot.
As a kid in elemntary I was a little nerdy and only had about 1-3 best friends. But in about 5th grade I began to bloom, and grow alot more then anyone in my school, and look much older then I was. I had a pretty good life in 5th grade, but when I reached 6th things went for a turn down ward. People started calling me a slut and doornob. just because I went out with some people, an dI looked older they atomaticaly thought I did alot of bad things with my boy friends. Thankfully I had great friends like Ron there with me. He talked to me everyday about my bad problems. but the teasing never stoped.
in the winter of 6th I was sexually harassed constantly and sexually abused by and older person. but I said nothing.
Well 7th grade came and nothing changed. I was constantly harassed, and made fun. One day on the bus going home I had a horrible day and a girl made a very vile coment to me. I just couldn't take it any more. So I went home loaded my gun and had it to my head. about to let go, my sister friend who was living with us walked in the door and stopped me. I never recived counselling but my sister was there. From that moment on I told my self why am I letting these people getting to me like this. " No one should beable to do this to someone, make them feel like they shouldn't live" remeber that! all of you are people!
7th went on and still a little hard but got better
now in 8th grade I have a great set of friends that care about me very much. I still get a couple hurtful remarks and there has been an incodent where I was going to sue for sexual harassment and slander but never have to the guy who sexual abused me. I think God will take care of me. Now there is nothing that my confidence can't handle. Now I have great confidence in myself, and I take pride in all that I do. For if it wasn't for my sisters friend I would not be here accomplishing all of these goals that I have.
I am very proud of myself, and that I never give up anymore
I encrouge you to take control of your self and your confidence. No one is good enough to make you take your life away and your pride. so always be happy.
and if you ever have any problems e-mail me at Bthere43@aol.com
sincerely,
Jamie X

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