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  It Really Is Okay To Talk About It I just received my first award ever for my webpage as shown. Im so proud!  Hello and welcome to my page! Thank you so much for all coming!This site will deal with my personal experiences living with ADD(Attention Deficit Disorder). Lets start off shall we? I will now bring you on a journey into my mind!  It all started when I was just a baby. I was very intelligent and spoke very early on. However, to me, the world was an adventure! Therefore, if my parents tried to present me with a dumb plastic toy or yucky veggies, Id let my mind wander to something more interesting(Like mom's purse with all the shiny thingies in it*l*) this never caused many problems until I was maybe 5 or 6 years old and propelled into a hellish world called school!  I was painfully aware that I did not fit in! I would find great comfort in just curling up under a big shady tree and read a good book. This was done while the other kids played ball or hopskotch. When I was in grade 1, this "big boy" in grade 2 walked up to me, yanked a book out of my hand, stomped on it and said "you think your too good for me eh you little squirt?" Kids ALWAYS asked me that, but I never answered because I knew Id cry and I was headstrong enough to not give them that satisfaction! To make matters worse, the teachers also gave me a hard time. In class, Id hear the teacher's voice, but if it was not interesting even the tiniest sound became loud until I had 10 different sounds pounding into my ears. Or sometimes I had hypervision, which means I'd see the most ridiculous things, like a speck of dust trapped in a ray of light.  Things got worse in grade 9 when I took an IQ test and discovered I was " way above the average" in intelligence. You may be confused at this point thinking, "why would one be upset about being smart?!". Let me enlighten you as to why I reacted in such a way. Because I still failed! I was thinking, "if I'm so smart, why am I failing? or maybe Im not smart, maybe they switched the results" The teachers unfortunately felt the same way saying to the class:"This is what happens to lazy people! they fail! this kid here is supposed to be smart! look at this test! 45% disgusting! let it be a lesson" I was 15, trying to find myself, but by that point, it felt as if I couldn't keep being strong, so I succombed to them and cried over this new torture method.  Things continued like this until last year, when I decided to get out of campus college to pursue home studies. I was at rock bottom for almost the entire semester before I decided I wanted out. My mom's friend (who has an ADD son) came over at the beginning of my last semester and she said it was clear to her that I had ADD... I was in total denial and a big depressive state. But after a while I decided to do research on ADD. Then finally, this past October I went to a psychologist who confirmed my suspicions. When she said"yes, you have ADD" I heard, " here's what is wrong, now you can get on with your life" It was almost a literal weight off my chest and shoulders. I made a complete turn around in my personality.  But I must say I owe a great deal of it to the few people*aside from family* that stuck by me: Sharon is an angel sent straight down from Heaven to save me. She was there to listen to even the darkest of my thoughts, hugged my tears away and repeated endlessly and tirelessly that I was worth it, I was a beautiful special person . Thank you Sharon, I love you... Tammy is my best friend... very patient with me although I regret to say, she bore the brunt of alot of bad moods and depressions and periods of total hyperactivity and bitchiness. But she still stuck by me and loved me just as much if not more during these bad times. Tammy, you are like my soul sister and I am blessed to have found you. I love ya little sis thats it for now*s* but keep checking and sign the guestbook please!  With embarrasment, I have been reminded that I forgot to put up the tributes for my online friends!!!! so here goes: LouisianaLady: Malinda, your a very special woman with a heart who's size is immesurable. I hope I can continue to help you to accept yourself... I love you lots and big big hugs DevilWoman: Jo, I can never repay you in full for all that you've done for me. your an angel, sweetie and I love you and miss you terribly Cethomp27: Tina, your so sweet.... we have both managed to help eachother through a very strong mutual friendship DeeDee:You are so special to me! your one of the few non ADDers who actually understand me. I can always always count on you to make me smile or get one of D's special healing hugs. I luv ya so much. You are one of the precious few to attain the rank of 'cybersister' Trish: Coach, friend, nurse, sister! You've helped me many times to deal with the very strong emotions that can come with ADD. I don't know how I can ever thank you enough...Everything I go through with the ADD you've been there and done that!!! It helps so much.. I love ya Trish! Bunch:Melodie, a beautiful name for a woman who has one of the most beautiful souls Ive ever seen. You are very strong and by being that way , you are source of courage strength and inspiration to me, You've influenced me more than you know! all my love to you. Starsabre: Jeff, you were one of the first ADDers I met on here. You made me feel at home by telling me that everything I was going through youd also gone through... hence the extremely important message "you are not alone" it is SOOO appreciated.. Best wishes for you and your sweetie. Buffy82: Kay, thank you for your friendship. it is a special one to me... weve shared many many ADD moments or as we say ADHHHHHHHHHHHHD *lol* you always manage to make me feel better on my bad days. many many hugs! luv ya! Shesadevil: Tracy, your an awesome friend to me. Your poetry has touched my soul to its very deepest part, alot of them describe what I feel to perfection! I luv ya lots and lots:-)big hugs. SA2: Lori, my lil cybersis. weve helped eachother so often.. your a comfort to me. Be blessed. *hugs* &ADDlib: Your knowledge of ADD has often been a comfort to me as Im sure is the case for many other ADDers who've crossed Linda's path!! :-) big hugs to you my friend... oh boy.. there are so many more, but having a big "ADD day" today and can't remember!  Id like to add a tribute here to a few more special people my brother: Gilles, you are a miracle in my life. I love you so much. You understand me cause you've been there!I won't ever stop missing you or loving you. my nephew: Jaccob, if someday you read this, know that I love you very much and I will be there for you for your questions and troubles with ADD. Take care my little angel and heal quickly... Richard Lavoie: You are an incredible man who has helped me understand my ADD even further!we need more people like you to teach young children their worth and to train teachers to empathise with ADD/LD children  http://members.tripod.com/~JeffreyBrown/adhd.htm http://www.uwm.edu/People/jkirsch/adhd.html http://www.angelfire.com/Penello/page2.html http://members.tripod.com/Batlise/index.html  I just came across a poem that Id like to share with you all... Kids who are different Here's to kids who are different, Kids who don't always get As. Here's to the kids who are different, Kids they call crazy or dumb, Kids who don't fit with the guts and the grit, Who dance to a different drum. Here's to the kids who are different, Kids with a mischievous streak. For when they have grown, As history has shown, Its their difference that makes them unique. author: Digby Wolfe  I have decided what I want to do with my life. Next year I will be attending Mount Saint Vincent University in gorgeous Halifax Nova Scotia. To get a degree in special education.Its a marvelous tribute to the teachers *Sharon Asher and Ruth Farrell*who is gone up to heaven, bless her soul* that have made me feel like I was worth it. I want to be the teacher that makes a difference in a child's life. I already have some experience with special needs children and its sooo rewarding. I just recently heard from my first "student" who has seemed to surmount her disabilities and has passed all her courses this semester! So Crystal if one day you read this know I love you to death and im so proud of you! Im very anxious to start this new chapter in my life. UPDATE: I just recently had the pleasure of reading the book "driven to distraction", I am including a link to amazon.com so you can purchase it directly online with their secure form. Driven to Distraction : Recognizing and... links to more books will follow as i discover them Heres another excellent one "you mean im not lazy, stupid or crazy?" speaks for itself! You Mean I'm Not Lazy, Stupid or Crazy?!... childhood/early adolescence can sometimes be confusing, but for the one with ADD/ADHD, it can seem as if no one else out there has these problems. An awful feeling, especially for the growing mind and soul. I highly reccomend the following books dealing with childhood/adolescent ADD/ADHD 1.ADHD Eddie, Intergalactic ladies man! ADHD Eddie, Intergalactic Ladies' Man! 2.this is a book for all caregivers of ADD children. Parents and teachers alike will gain new insight on how to deal with ADD children How to Reach and Teach ADD/ADHD Children... Finally, what ADD page would be complete without info on treatment options?! so here they are: 1.medication. there is alot of controversy surrounding the use of ritalin, so here's a book that you should read if you are considering the use of medication. It also describes healthier, more non invasive methods of treatment Beyond Ritalin : Facts About Medication... PS... you guys should try the "iwin.com".. Just click on my banner! my banner from www.smarterkids.com has tons of educational things for kids. many of which are great ideas for ADD kids check it out! |
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