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I have a story to tell and for obvious reasons will not give the names
but it is just to show you one of the things that causes me as a parent
to a prisoner many thoughts of horror.

One inmate was one that the officials of the prison just did not like.
It may have been justified so I will not get into that, and this as it
is set up will not include my son because there is only one inmate in a
cell on death row. but there are other ways to accomplish the same
thing. Anyhow this prisoner was put in a cell with one who ws
homosexual, who was bigger in statue than he was. The homosexual was
continually trying to force himself on the prisoner who would complain
to the guards who would only laugh. It got so bad the prisoner finally
had to protect himself and in the process killed the homosexual. Any
other time it would have been self-defense but now he is sitting on
death row himself for killing someone in prison. Knowing things like
this do happen cause many a day of fear about some of the things that
could happen to my son. He has already been beat up, had to endure
sickness without treatment and other things that would strike fear in a
person like me.

>-->==>Ronald<==><-->< I woke up tonight with a deep scary feeling, which at the same time gave me great relief. It seemed I was sitting in a small cell waiting for them to come and get me. For some reason they had accepted my plea to take me instead of my son. If someone had to be murdered I wanted it to be me. At the same time my fear was real because I didn't want to die at their hands. The only reason I was there was to protect a person i loved deeply. I kept listening with all my power trying to tell if they were on the way. When they get here I will have no choice but to go calmly with them because it will do me absolutely no good to plead or fight. They were determined for me to die and I would go if they had to carry me. Soon I would be strapped down, unable even to scratch my nose waiting for that needle to enter my arm. Why in the world are they so slow because the longer they take, the longer I will be in this state of complete helplessness. What kind of feelings are going through their mind right now. Is murder a way for a decent human being to make a living. Sure they are only taking orders because that is their job, but who took the job to where they would have to take such orders. In that case they are the only people to blame because that is the job they wanted. No one twisted their arm and made them take that job. It must take a special person to want to do such bidding. Well in a few minutes I will be out of it and will no longer be able to see or talk to the people I love. Try to forgive them >-->==>Ronald<==><-->< What kind of things go through a parents mind when they have one of their children on death row. That question had come to my mind in the past, never thinking I would learn first hand. Just before my son was sentenced the sheriff gave me a chance to visit with my son in one of the back rooms. He said my sons girlfriend and baby could not visit because the girlfriend had not been present in the courtroom during the trial. On the surface that sounds just but I guess he didn't know that on the first day of the trial she was sitting beside me when she was informed that since she would probably be called as a witness she was not allowed in the courtroom. That girl spent the entire trial sitting in the hallway downstairs waiting to be called, after which she would be allowed in the courtroom. Because of this lack of communication on their part my son was not allowed to see and hold his baby. It is true that one day earlier he had been allowed a short visit in which he was allowed to hold the baby. The news really jumped on that one saying the victims family did not think this should be allowed. Whether they said this or not the news certainly jumped on it and the Sheriff and DA were getting such good reviews they sure didn't want to mess it up. I know they had the federal prosecutors were there telling them hat to do but this one thing could have been allowed Now he will never again be able to hold that son and I know what that does to a father. I have only been able to pass some hugs to him from his father. I know that baby sure misses a lot of hugs my son would like to give him. Some say this is only right because my son took a life and has never shown any remorse, which leaves me with a catch 22. I will not discuss whether it is right or wrong, it is for the courts to decide, which they will do anyhow. My son has taken the position that he was not present when the murder occured, so how can he say he is sorry for doing something he says he did not do, It would be like someone saying I am sorry I broke your leg but I didn't do it. Sounds crazy doesn't it. As long as he takes that position there is not much he can say outside the statement that he is sorry it happened which he has done. This has been grossly overlooked by the media. All this leaves me on the side with a son I dearly love on death row. I just can't get by the fact that I do a lot of crying an praying hoping someday the death penalty will be outlawed. because in the end what does it accomplish? The states that have the death penalty have the highest murder rate so why keep it? >-->==>Ronald<==><-->< Is there such a thin as a Guardian Angel? I really believe there is. There has been too many things in my life turn out so good I just have to believe someone up there is looking out for this frail human being. I can remember one time my father and I were in a pickup truck I had borrowed. We were about 20 miles out of town when the truck stopped. Even though I am not a mechanic by any means, I was able to find the problem. The points in the distributer were broke. There is a spring on the main part which was broken in two. I told my father I would have to catch a ride into town and find the part we needed. I crossed the road and the first car to pass picked me up. He put the car in lo gear, and as he started to move he asked me what the problem was. When I told him he hit the brakes, saying he just might have what I needed. A few days before he had found an old set of points and had them in his glove compartment. Sure enough he found the points and knew how to put them in. He would not take any pay for what he had done, and left with a wave. Guardian Angel? Another time it was about 10:30 pm and I was going through Bogalusa La. about 20 miles from home. The universal joint broke on my drive shaft. Across the street was a Liquor store and I went over there to call home. A customer in there asked what my problem was. It happened he worked in a parts house in town. He took me down, got the part I needed, some wrenches I would need, so I was able to get the car running. He would only let me pay for the part. Guardian Angel? One time I was delivering newspapers to make some needed extra money. i ran into the back of a legally parked car and me with no Insurance. The lady came down and I agreed to pay for the damage as I should. The next night she came to my home and said she had put the car in for repairs and needed it out the next day. I went down the next day and paid the bill [a little less than $20.00] with what was really my grocery money for the week. After I paid the bill the man at the garage gave me an envelope the lady had left with instructions to give it to me after I paid the bill. Inside was a letter thanking me for taking care of everything along with a $20.00 Bill. Guardian angel? My son is in prison on death row and through this I have found some of the greatest people in the world who have offered and given great moral support No greater people have ever lived, and all I can offer them is thanks. Guardian Angel? This only makes me think God has appointed someone to look out for this undeserving person Thank God there is a God. I only pray this Guardian Angel can somehow let me again hug my son. >-->==>Ronald<==><-->< ************************************************************************************************>

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